Bored, photo of Green Dragon

hi all,
Stoned as always but I am still taking care of my buddy with Cancer.
It's been 5 weeks living at his home 5 days a week.
My GF has been taking care of the garden.

My last batch suffered from my lack of care. It will be my smallest harvest at about 3 ounces, it's curing in a paper bag.
So I make capsules and cookies with coconut oil.
I make green dragon to, picture of bottle, I use blue Mio to change from an amber to green, also lots of honey and some vanilla.
The capsules are great for my sick bro.
He swallows them or can Can add the oil to his feeding tube w his liquid food.
It is Days from the last treatment 7 weeks of hell for him.

I did take the time to throw my MasterKush Mom in my Tent and I have two different aged groups of clones.

Pictures when I can, I barely get time to garden. Another month or so living here,
but hey "I do anything for my loved ones".
Bless,
DZ

God bless the both of you. Kept him feeling the good feeling.

Such a great post! I wish him all the best of luck! What a great buddy you are!

The hardest part of living...is watching people dying. My brothers at stage 4 cancer now and its about as helpless a feeling as one can have.
I feel for ya Dog...you're a good man.....
If there would happen to be some sort of God up there.....he sees what you do.

Than You All,
My Brother is " lucky" his Cancer is stage one and not spread.
Sqaumas is a form of skin cancer and he has it or hopefully Had it at the base of his toungue and it grew right out the side of his neck and created a mass that shifted his head about 15-20 degrees. Inoperable it has been aggressively treated for 7 weeks.
Thank U All Again!
Blessings,
Dogenzengi

Yea doz I've been the full road with cancer after my little bro got hit with non hodkus lymphoma at the age of 19.I watched on helplessly as it consumed every part of him until finally his pain was relieved.......he died aged 23......and as far as God's concerned......well if their is one ....personally I can't wait to have my day with him...........the only good thing that came from my little brothers cancer was early screenings for all the family......yes you guessed it I was diagnosed with the same cancer 7 years ago but thanks to my brother and a load of chemo(nasty shit)I am free of it..so keep the chin up and focus forward my freind......

Cobnobuler,
if you ever need to talk I am always here.

Green House,
I pray you remain cancer free forever, same for the rest of the family.

So many difficult situations in life. I am more great full and more at peace knowing I gave the best CARE My Brother Could have.
praying hard for a clear results for All of us!
Blessings,
DZ

Dogenzengi said:

Cobnobuler,
if you ever need to talk I am always here.

DZ

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Thanks Dog, I appreciate it. My big brother has always been a pretty tough guy, and watching him fight this for 3 years now, and all the while losing a little more to it everyday, has been almost to much to bear watching him go through it. It started in his mouth and they operated on it, but it made its way into his sinuses. They just never could get it all. Now, the whole one side of his face is swelled up and his right eye is completely swelled shut. He's on a feeding tube and Fentanyl patches.
Its just an awful mess man, just awful.

You have many "brothers" and you can count me among them.
None can replace your Sick Brother but hopefully we can be supportive for you.
I Just hope the Drs keep him as comfortable as possible.
We must carry on, I cry in private daily.
My Brothers Case is not as severe as your brothers.
If you are his caregiver just make sure you rest some every week.
I spend 96 hours a week at my brothers home at his beck and call, all for love.
I Hope you have somebody to talk to that is close and understands.
I have my Girl friend without her support I could not do what I have accomplished.
Blessings Brother,
DZ

Honestly Dog, I dont think I could handle being his caregiver. He has his live-in of many years taking care of him and she floats around him like a hawk. Its been a blessing for him that he has her, but its starting to get near time that the Hospice people may have to come in and she'll be really difficult about that. I mean, shes great with him, but not so much so with other people and especially not what she would consider "outsiders"
I dont know where this goes next.....

Yea cob I feel for you mate ....when It comes time for the hospice to get involved it's always hard.... possibly the hardest time of the whole horrible situation as this is usually the place we will finally be at peace.....but the people at the hospice are great at wot they do and help to ease the pain for the patient and the family....when my brother past they let me plant a small tree in their garden to remember him by......but to b honest I can't bring myself to go and look at it....I did at the start but their was just to many sad memories for me so I haven't been in years...

Greenhouse;save said:

Yea cob I feel for you mate ....when It comes time for the hospice to get involved it's always hard.... possibly the hardest time of the whole horrible situation as this is usually the place we will finally be at peace.....but the people at the hospice are great at wot they do and help to ease the pain for the patient and the family....when my brother past they let me plant a small tree in their garden to remember him by......but to b honest I can't bring myself to go and look at it....I did at the start but their was just to many sad memories for me so I haven't been in years...

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Green house Said it well.
Hospice has one job to ease any suffering and make death a little easier for the patient.
They are also trained in grief counseling or can direct you to someone should you need help with your emotions.

I watched my Brothers wife die in September after her 3 year fight.
She was a fierce woman to say the least but her body was ravaged by Cancer.
When her time came she was in her own bedroom with hospice and our family around her and watched her stop breathing. She had been heavily medicated during the last 48 hours for her comfort as her Liver and Brain were destroyed by Cancer.
Cancer took most of my family My Dad, My Grandmother, My Aunt. All lost to Cancer, my Mom is a Breast cancer survivor from 78'.

This part of Life awaits most everyone, and learning to deal with grief is important.
I Cry I Private, I hit stuf a lot....

I hit concrete and steel but I trained my hands years ago.
My last bought of emotion I hit a heavy bag till I couldn't raise my hands. I did that for days on end dealing with my grief.
We all have our own process.
Blessings Brother,
DZ