What kind of a troll doesnt even follow his own rules? I didnt flame you at all in the first sentence. (no responses after this, I couldn't* resist pointing that out)I'm a troll, You're a troll, everyone is a troll troll!
Describe the question more clearly? Do you mean what do I think of myself physically? Or what do I see beyond that.When you look in a mirror who/what do you see??
What kind of a troll doesnt even follow his own rules? I didnt flame you at all in the first sentence. (no responses after this, I couldn't* resist pointing that out)
ugh omg dude i dont even know where to start.So help me. Read everything. I need help explaining the point im trying to make. Dont just read part of it and call me crazy. I'm just trying a DIFFERENT way of explaining my view. I have tried normal ways 4 times and it goes no where, no one opens up, no one tells me anything.... and this time someone answered. Someone answered truthfully! It cant be coincidence what I'm thinking. Just read my CONFUSING paper that I wrote in literally 12 minutes. Look at the post times between the first and second post, look how quickly the information is coming out of my head. Its meant to be CONFUSING but what is REALLY going on in my head. Think of it like a brainstorm.... just read it all... try and come up with what it means to you in a philosophical sense... and respond. Thats it. I'm not trolling. Just do that.
Thanks. This is the first time I've tried just writing and not second guessing myself. I really don't want to mess up what I've written but I'm gonna step away for a bit... come back and try to reword what I'm trying to say.ugh omg dude i dont even know where to start.
first off if you want people to actually read what you write, you really need to eliminate about 90% of your text. its just too much. you really are rambling.
obviously you have a lot on your mind, and you seem intelligent enough. you keep asking people to respond, but you hid what you were asking too deep in you rambles and it seems the point is lost now. you might want to try again after taking some time away to clear your head.
you need to chill out. yeah austin sucks, and is usually an ignorant ass- so do what you have already said and ignore it. theres a lot of people here like that and it will never serve you well to start getting into anything with them.
yes the system is broken, lots of things are bad and broken right now. maybe its driving you so crazy because instead of thinking so much about it you need to do more acting on it. idk its hard to filter through all the bulk here
im sure i didnt answer a lot of what you want, nut im at work and your shit is really hard to read through.
well, this is a better start than call of duty. LOL. sorry but i have to laugh at that, a bunch of preteens and teens on xbox live is the worst place you could ever try and start a personal mission like this. youtube would be better, but remember there are literally 1000's of years worth of videos on there, so you will have to be special or get lucky to stand out without paying for advertising.Thanks. This is the first time I've tried just writing and not second guessing myself. I really don't want to mess up what I've written but I'm gonna step away for a bit... come back and try to reword what I'm trying to say.
I am just focusing so hard on the fact that people pretend to be who they are not.... or they judge based off bias whether they just now discovered their bias by something I said. And I just know people aren't doing what I need them to do.... so when they read what I have to say when I clean it up.... they dont try. I've tried for literally 2 years. I've been on call of duty for the passed couple months.. playing... and talking to people on there. Explaining this thought on my mind... and no one even comes close to understanding. Not even close. I've tried my family, all my friends.... I think youtube is my last option to express myself completely in a way people will listen... There mere fact that I tried call of duty to try.... shows my desperation
BUT even if I do get 50k subscribers.... people still wont listen if I cant word it correctly. If they see the wrong thing.... if their perception is off... they dont get it.
I can see where you think its problems with my life.... but I'm only having problems with life... because these questions that aren't even formed yet in questions in my head. I need to ask them... and I need to figure them out... and I need to change the world. And even if I dont change the world... I need to make a difference. It is so intense. I have no emotions. I feel nothing... but when I fight for this... when I am typing faster than any other human type (i feel) and the keyboard is ablaze... fire.. light... I feel emotions. THAT MEANS SOMETHING. I dunno... and you cant summarize everything I think... based off just this little bit of insight. Its not people letting me down... its everyone. Like the human race. Intelligent, half way smart, average, or even dumb... all of them let me down. There is no good and the good that there is doesnt make enough of a difference. There needs to be more good. If we stop caring about what others think... we would stop lying to people to look cool.... accept being embarassed... and deal with our problems.well, this is a better start than call of duty. LOL. sorry but i have to laugh at that, a bunch of preteens and teens is on xbox live is the worst place you could ever try and start a personal mission like this. youtube would be better, but remember there are literally 1000's of years worth of videos on there, so you will have to be special or get lucky to stand out without paying for advertising.
sounds like a lot of people in your personal life have been letting you down lately? and you said you were 22 right? thats a typical thing around your age, when you discover the people you grew up with are a whole lot different than you ever realized. plus you are in a transition period in life, lots of shit if going to change and be crazy for the next few years, and thats part of the fun.
you make some comments about some things like you know whats up, are you part of the resistance?
and way to derail another thread austin, you are all too good at that lately.why do you keep threating to run to the authorites over stuff that buck says, then send me shit saying i suck. im not reporting you here, just commenting back on you being an asshole.
ive seen how you treat people on this forum, and im sure its only a matter of time before you are gone.
It got derailed because sautin or whatever said.I was a troll after I wws agreeing with him and he kept.making.huge walls.of texts about.it...why do you keep threating to run to the authorites over stuff that buck says, then send me shit saying i suck. im not reporting you here, just commenting back on you being an asshole.
ive seen how you treat people on this forum, and im sure its only a matter of time before you are gone.
Thank you. That is exactly what has happened because people kept talking. Let him post 15 times on a thread 1000 times over the next 6 months and get no responses. You will make him a million times more sad and angry.and way to derail another thread austin, you are all too good at that lately.
lol i knew you had to be trippin! i get what you are saying but fuck everyone else man, just be the best most honest you that you can be.I can see where you think its problems with my life.... but I'm only having problems with life... because these questions that aren't even formed yet in questions in my head. I need to ask them... and I need to figure them out... and I need to change the world. And even if I dont change the world... I need to make a difference. It is so intense. I have no emotions. I feel nothing... but when I fight for this... when I am typing faster than any other human type (i feel) and the keyboard is ablaze... fire.. light... I feel emotions. THAT MEANS SOMETHING. I dunno... and you cant summarize everything I think... based off just this little bit of insight. Its not people letting me down... its everyone. Like the human race. Intelligent, half way smart, average, or even dumb... all of them let me down. There is no good and the good that there is doesnt make enough of a difference. There needs to be more good. If we stop caring about what others think... we would stop lying to people to look cool.... accept being embarassed... and deal with our problems.
I believe that the way to this goal is through shrooms. Its a totally healthy plant... cant overdose (especially if you use moderation like you're meant to)... and it removes all of your LIES when you get there. I've seen it happen. I've sat in a VERY scary room, with 4 VERY scary people while 1 of them did acid and I watched. For the entire trip. Smoking pot and documenting. I've WATCHED the very second when it happens. I know that guy better than any of his closes relatives or people because I know things about him NO ONE KNOWS EXCEPT HIM AND ME. Imagine if everyone wretched human on the planet was fucking FORCED to experience this... and talk with a therapist about what they saw.
The world wouldnt have idiot people who are unaware of the dumb things they do that slow the human race down.
How is that?
why you so hung up on beech? hes not even a tnt mod so theres nothing he can do to be "fair" to you lolLet's see how fair BEECH is...
you do realize your own irony here right? you need to stop mentioning it too.Thank you. That is exactly what has happened because people kept talking. Let him post 15 times on a thread 1000 times over the next 6 months and get no responses. You will make him a million times more sad and angry.