Wow now you guys are telling me because I'm married that I should've stopped then??
BTW, it's 4 grams in 4 YEARS... not 4 months dude. A gram a month is wayyyyyy too much.
My wife and I generally do it together... A gram will last the 2 of us about 5 days. I'll shoot up, come down, then she shoots up, comes down, and we go out and do our thing. The most we've ever done is probably 3 shots in one day. Each. That's the most we'll allow ourselves to do.
People, you aren't getting it. You don't understand ME. I'm not in denial about anything. I'm not hiding anything. I'm not addicted to anything, and I know for a fact that I'm a strong enough person to overcome ANY addiction. Take cigarettes for example - I smoked on and off for about 4 years. Then one morning I woke up, and wasn't even craving a cigarette. So I didn't smoke one. That was about 2 years ago. Since then, I've bought a pack here, a pack there, probably gone through about 2 cartons since then. Sometimes I want a cigarette, sometimes I don't! Just like sometimes I want some coke, sometimes I don't! Right now, I want some. I haven't had any since early january, and it's 2 days from March. I could buy a half a gram and be set until end of may, maybe June. You can call me an idiot all you want... You can hate on me, you can tell me how stupid it is, but I'm still relatively young (25) and my wife is the same age, and sometimes we just wanna party. There's nothing wrong with that, as long as you can control it. Which in 4 years, I have proven myself able to do. I KNOW what addiction can do to people... I KNOW that you can lose EVERYTHING by letting it take its grip on you. However, if you don't let it get to that point? If you don't cross that line of "too much," that's absolutely fine, in my opinion.
Take this for example - I'm a musician. I play lead guitar in a band. All my equipment totals to about $15-20,000. Amps, guitars, basses, effect pedals, cords, cables, microphones, equipment stands, straps, power conditioners, rack mount processors... I LOVE my music, I love playing it, I love making it, and THAT'S what I'm addicted to. These material goods, are my life. I would NEVER sell any of this stuff or trade it off or anything, ever. A drug addict would see all this stuff as nothing more than a bank deposit. "Hey I could sell this guitar, get $1000, and go buy a bunch of coke!" No. It's not like that at all.
We pay the bills, and whatever is left over after dropping some in savings, is our "fun money" for the week. If it gets spent before we buy any drugs, so be it. No big deal. But, if we come across some, it's part of what the money is for anyways. 1/2 gram = $100 here. That's pretty fucking spendy. So needless to say, we can't afford to buy enough to do anything with anyways. One of the other things to keep in mind, is when you do something as addictive as coke, you need to limit the TIME you do it. We have very strict rules that we abide by. We will only shoot on Friday or Saturday nights. From 7 pm to midnight. That way, when you come down and you're craving more, there's really no way to get it. We go to bed, and you wake up in the morning and you're over it. You didn't do enough to have serious withdrawls, and it's just like nothing. Plus, we are both here for each other for support. We both know that the other one wouldn't put up with an addicted spouse. Our marriage means a lot to both of us. Therefore, neither of us are in a place to gamble that.
So, there you have it. Music, my wife, strict rules, availability. 4 reasons why I'll never allow myself to get addicted, and that I'll be nothing more than a chipper, any day.
No kids right now. Not for at least another 5 years. We are having a lot of fun together right now, and we just don't want kids yet.
