"What I don't have is suppliers for the following. How much each of the following I need. And how much each of the following will cost for the first grow cycle. Seriously if you can help please do, like I would appreciate it so much. As I said, my cat broke my monitor, so I can't play video games, I've quit my job so I have little "fun" money, my girlfriend left Shanghai 2 weeks before because we thought we could take the cat no trouble, and everything is closed here so it is possible but so difficult and inconvenient to do research."
That should be your business plan/resume.
or "FEED ME"