yep.... about to lose my fucking mind. Apparently everyone around this town either don't smoke bud.. or.. they're just a bunch of bitches that don't care about anyone else except themselves. Either way, I'm about to lose my mind. I've never gone more than 2 or 3 days without either having some bud or at least having a friend call me over and smoke me out.
Getting tired of people calling me and telling me that they know where its at.. and then the next day.. I go through all kinds of bullshit to get my money together so I can get a sack from that person like they said they could get.. and yet its like when I get my money together.. go through all the BS to get it... and getting my hopes up that I'm going to get a nice sack and be able to chill and smoke.. its like there's always some fucking fucked up lame ass excuse as to why they can't get it.
Now I remember why I started growing for myself.. so I don't have to deal with stupid ass brainless fucks... and to top it off I'm stuck here for another 3 weeks.. and now that I know I'm not going to be able to (well, more than likely won't be able to) find any kind of bud to smoke on.. NOT EVEN REGS!!! while I'm here.. I'm thinking of just quitting all together. Either that, or just go back into hiding and stay to myself instead of having to rely on brainless fucks that have no idea what they're talking about to begin with. Drove from Jersey all the way to fucking Arkansas because dude said he had some kill.. I get here... and he's got some lame excuse for not having it.. but tells me he can get it.. and for the past 9 days now.. I've called him every single day to see if he had heard anything.. and its like he's got an excuse each and every time I call. I'm getting very very very very tired and worn out.. having to fucking deal with dumb ass brainless fucks!!
I'm going back to Jersey this coming Friday...cutting this trip by 2 weeks.. and I'm never EVER coming back to this fucking shit-hole of a state again. Fuck Arkansas.. and all the cousin fucking rednecks in it.
Peace.
yeah, I am quite upset right now... and I had to vent.. and I had nobody to vent to.. so I came here to do so... and yes I do feel just a tad bit better. But, I'd feel even better with a sack.