There are so many things I could say after reading the first post all the way up to this post before mine, like how everything will be ok if you just hang in there, or I could write about personal stories of how I've dealt with losing family and friends, or I could speak of personal demons I've battled, but what I cant do is see the world through your eyes Hepheastus420, but what I CAN SAY is, as close as I've come to the edge, the one thing that always brings me back, and I know this might sound strange and even a little crazy but, at my lowest point when there is no doubt in my mind that it cant get any worse, for some reason this pops in my head ( I CANT WAIT TO SEE WHAT HAPPENS NEXT, FOR BETTER OR WORSE )