How is Ayahuasca by the way? I never got around to
serenading DMT and MAOI's.
Meant to reply to this last night, Though I didn't really know how... I remember Shepj a while back making a response to something I had posted that went something along the lines of "Every psychedelic experience is life changing whether the individual chooses it to be or not. It is a reflection of ones inner self onto oneself" don't quote me exactly on that though! I thought of that post/quote when the experience kicked off and truly started to understand what he/others here were saying. Once it began to fully take hold I knew that the brew had been "calling" for me... That the tea itself was me trying to reconnect and inform another alienated version of myself of my future, past, and present all at once and on every spectrum of reality! Not a very informative evaluation
but I don't think there are enough words in the English dictionary to fully describe the experience... It was life changing to say the least so much so that I took what I consider a LONG hiatus from psychedelics ( with the exception of one or two single tab WoW experiences for giggles and grins along with dipping my toes in the sand twice or thrice) as I felt there was nothing left for them to teach me. After the experience I quit my daily amphetamine regiment, regardless of how
SUPER HUMAN I felt it made me, along with tossing the benzodiazpine script that went along with it. Which accounts for why my posts are not as purely analytical information and have more of an emotional muse to them (in my opinion at least). It also showed me how I became a complete hermit in my obsessive pursuit to obtain ego satisfaction for existence and allowed me to once again properly socialize with other human beings. Hence why I am not as abundantly present on the forums anymore. Not that I think amphetamines or benzodiazpines are evil; they just have their place and time an should not be so willingly tossed around like candy by doctors for daily use. Albeit I was seeking them from my doctor at the time. Unaware of the
real mentally addictive qualities they can have on an individual and what powerful psychologically altering effects long term use of them can have.
To sum this up so it doesn't look like some incohesive kava kava induced rambling. The experience is one not to be taken lightly. I would not consider it in anyway a recreational drug, purely spiritual in
nature. Could be very damaging to the psyche if one is not prepared for the "long haul" of completely dying and being slowly pieced back together into rebirth. I still don't know when I'll get around to trying it again as the after glow of the experience seems to be an almost permanent scar on the mind (not in a bad sense) that will never be healed by the mind filtered time of reality.
P.S. The entire time I was in continuous contemplation of whether to cry out in sheer terror or ecstasy. Also if you don't filter the tannin properly with egg whites there will be purging!