When i was 19-20 i lost 95 pounds. i was told [because i could not see, nor believe it] that i looked hot ! men were paying attention to me and i had more sex than anyone in the 90's or 2000's can imagine.
it did not take long for me to realize that none of these men gave a damn about ME who i was, where i was going, not even my name. i just looked hot and every slimmy creepy jerk slithered out from under every rock just to get a peice of ass from the great looking babe. how empty and shallow, all those go nowere relationships and one night stands...that was worse for my self esteem than being fat. i decided anyone who really wanted to know the real me, could take some time, and get past the cover[fat] and get to know who i am, not what i look like. BIG LIFE LESSON. now the people in my life are in it because they are down right good people, who recognize one of there own. attractive spirit, soul mind, personality, helpful, charming, thats what i want, thats what i want to be, and for the most part hope i am already !