haha he wrapped up any chance of me going further by saying, do you want to fuck? like dude, be classy. lol but the truth is i would, he's fine as hell
actually he's been blowing me off and i called him on it, and he said he was mad at himself and disturbed at what i said, havent heard from him since. two days.... ugh. its just im really inexperienced and he was my first kiss/ guy to mess around with, and so i'd rather not have things voiced, but for it to come naturally
ugh i think i might have to move on to someone else, i think he's pretty much lost interest
actually he's been blowing me off and i called him on it, and he said he was mad at himself and disturbed at what i said, havent heard from him since. two days.... ugh. its just im really inexperienced and he was my first kiss/ guy to mess around with, and so i'd rather not have things voiced, but for it to come naturally
Stop thinking shit has to be a certain way. Telling you to "suck it" might be blunt yes...but when your kissing his chest and your in the area what should he say "can I please insert this into your mouth?" Hell no. Stop getting caught up with all the little things and just fucking go after it. If he has seen you...and kissed you...obviously he can see your weight...which is your biggest issue...and he still wants to fuck you...so. ya. And ya I can understand your first time and all but let's be real. This isn't high school. There isn't a prom. He isn't gonna the last guy you bang either. But you are NEVER gonna get ANYTHING...unless you there to live on the moment. Talk dirty. And enjoy yourself. Just fucking stop thinking so much and then getting mad wheb we don't read your mind. No wonder he's lost interest. He has blue ass balls and thinks your playing games...have you even told him he is all of your firsts? That will calm him down on the aggressive scale...but if you haven't told him? This is all on you.
Stop thinking shit has to be a certain way. Telling you to "suck it" might be blunt yes...but when your kissing his chest and your in the area what should he say "can I please insert this into your mouth?" Hell no. Stop getting caught up with all the little things and just fucking go after it. If he has seen you...and kissed you...obviously he can see your weight...which is your biggest issue...and he still wants to fuck you...so. ya. And ya I can understand your first time and all but let's be real. This isn't high school. There isn't a prom. He isn't gonna the last guy you bang either. But you are NEVER gonna get ANYTHING...unless you there to live on the moment. Talk dirty. And enjoy yourself. Just fucking stop thinking so much and then getting mad wheb we don't read your mind. No wonder he's lost interest. He has blue ass balls and thinks your playing games...have you even told him he is all of your firsts? That will calm him down on the aggressive scale...but if you haven't told him? This is all on you.
he knows... he was hella cool with everything, but then after the last time we were together, he just stopped calling and texting, i never blow up his phone, dont ask him who he's with, etc... i act like i always have and yet he's changed... im not expecting anything romantic, but i wont fuck him cause he doesnt care about me... and how does he have blue balls if i get him off everytime and he doesnt return the favor? he doesnt try to rush me or anything, but i do make sure he gets his... i deserve a bit of respect... he wont even do much other than stuff with my chest... its like i fuck him or else i dont get any pleasure beyond the basic