You are right, I guess paranoia is just kicking in. It's really scary outdoors, I doubt I will do it again. Scary for so many reasons, it is the public. I want to do indoors next grow, it's the best bet. Thank you for your kind words.
i get scared in my backyard.
the starter fluid thing should work i just read about it in this new book i got. they use it for bears. you rub bacon grease all over a can of starter fluid. get it at the auto parts store. it's basically ether. so you rub the grease on it and leave a few around the plants the bears come, find the yummy smelling can and bite into it. you can imagine what happens after that. at close range in your hand i think it would have the same effect. or maybe some of that wasp spray. it sprays 30 feet or some shit. it's easily available. just to have something will make you somewhat more confident. i feel your fears.