Lol this thread go too exciting too read further... I'm stoned and it makes my arms itch, lol.
So, did you take the E?
If not you SHOULD... based on the fact that you have to do anything in secret from your boyfriend, I would dump his arse in a minute... it will never last and even more certainly never lead to hapiness.
I am so gratefull for the wonderfull woman shareing my life... we have no secrets, and have been together since our teens...
You will enjoy the E, allthough it may make you a little tweaked an nausious (sp.) for a short while. Don't get couch lock and talk sickness... get up and go dance...
E will teach your grandma to dance... it just makes all the right connections in your brain... its a very physical thing...
Great experience... not to be repeated any more than once in 6 months, not to loose its charm... (you build ap fast resistance with big depression and dissapointment soon)
Once you understand from E how fragile the concept of the world is based on predicatable brain chemistry it will be easier for you to do the shrooms... yet again a completely diffirent feeling, much harder trip, but much kinder on the body the next day. And after that you are ready for LSD and then DMT.