i love u maryjane.

yo, wen i smoke pot i wake up feeling really good and healthy the next day, like ive had a vitamin shot or somethin'.. and wen i took up smoking on a regular basis i stopped drinking (and i used to drink GOOD, been done had a holiday at re-hab etc)
I aslo became a nicer person in general, much calmer and focused (in general, even wen i havnt smoked) Much more accomodating to loved ones needs.. Im much more generous, and live by karma and believe woteva u give out comes back ten fold..
Marijuana has healing propertys, believe that.. like i said, i feel healthier and more rejuvenated

i know ive changed but i only recently realised its been since ive became chronic..

On another thing (negative for some maybe) is that MaryJane gets u in touch with ur minds eye, it takes woteva is under the surface and brings it to afront..for me it brings up thoughts of my mortality, dying.. its the only thing we all have in common i know, but its a scary thing to come to terms with, mostly leaving all the ppl u care about behind.. Also on the "Minds Eye" note, MJ really gets me in touch and i enjoy fond memories of my past, it helped me put a timeline together of where ive been and wot ive done,.. and wen i think about the past it almost becomes too much, i feel overcome, its really a good thing tho,.. like watching early episodes of 'Roseanne', man it takes me back in such a way i cant describe lol, reminding me wen i was just a little wippa snapper, warm n safe, no bills or worries.. good memories..

goodluck anyone making sense of that..

i don't think you are having these thoughts solely because of the marijuana. Like you said, it brings whats under the surface "afront". You obviously have issues you need to resolve within your own psyche in my opinion, explore your thoughts and mind... find peace and justification and you will feel much more confident as a person, your life, morality, the concept of death, its all just a matter of figuring it out for yourself....just as all of us do. I believe we all go through at least 1 crisis if not many where we just cant come to terms with the world around us..we feel lost and we start questioning, wondering, what if-ing...etc. and this will probably go on and on as we change overtime during our rather short lives.

So yeah, smoke pot, your good. But maybe try writing about these thoughts or talking to someone intellectual about them.. who can help you get through them and find resolution/inner peace.

mary jane took me away from the blocks, saved me from a life of peddling crack n heroin till i get shot or go prison, mary jane took my family away from being barely able to afford a chinese to being able to eat in west london every day, mary jane showed me that the blood that runs through my veins is the same as everyone elses and thus we are all one being broken into 6 billion pieces, mary jane showed me that its not about the view from the top of the mountain, its about the path you choose to get there.

ET- thanks for chiming in bro, food for thought
UKG- live the dream homie..

Any time i smoke i feel like i entered a parallel dimension where everything is the same but i percept them different.

Y'know?

yeh i know... ur outlook changes, u can watch the same movie faded, then un-faded and itll seem different..

i know, when i wake up, before the wake n bake, everything seems wierd and almost unreal, then after the wake n bake im back in reality and ready for the day.

hahaha ukgrower my man,.. only wen he's stoned does he feel the world is right

You're awesome! I feel the same way too!