I often find myself toking....

Alone.

So this is my Toke & Talk thread... No specific topic, as we all smoke and talk about crap across the board anyways .
Going through transition and change here... indecisive about some things.... think I need to stop smoking during the day again! just puff at night. need to stay on top of some things, and I know Im "medicating" the symptoms away... but really need to deal with the issues themselves, not just the symptoms. need to listen to more music... more random music .

I have a single flower in bloom here. Im really happy and excited about it. I remember reading that its an annual that was supposed to die 2 1/2 months ago . single bloom, purple. Ima take a picture of it

Yeah enjoying what I can for sure... developing a newfound fondness for fall... rediscovering my love for nature and life, I can actually feel myself healing I can feel myself loving again... not just holding on by whisps... Im so grateful for what I have.... would yah look at that? Do you ever stop and take a second to really enjoy such small simple things? I take so much pleasure and gain so much from such things as these... me and my daughter planted that tree together and it means the world to me... love fall color! toking on haha

Being introspective is always a good thing....what I may have lost in "time", I gained in wisdom.

Nothing wrong with smoking alone, that's just what happens when you smoke all day

Choices had and choices made,
choices of every day...
these are the choices played.
I always have the power to choose,
and then to follow through.
If the future is not displayed to me,
I might want to wander endlessly,
and wonder at what is truth,
but I have the power to choose...
What I believe, and thereby what I feel,
to form an understanding and concept of real.
Yesterday, today, and tomorrow will soon be gone,
so I can sit and look back at what was done-
reflect on the moments of sorrow and fun-
to better understand choices already made
to make better choices for MYSELF the next day.
so I can smell the flowers and grass so sweet,
and look to the horizons to create everlasting memories...
let go of the pains and remember to be happy...
that for all my past choices, I still have more...
and with each new one, the possibilities for me,
explode like never before.
Like the choice to let go, accept myself and keep walking.
Like the choice to NOT listen, and just let them keep talking.
The choice to know who I am,
No longer the complacent compliant dissident.
The choice to do Whatever I can,
and the choice to avoid incident...
Im convinced of it.
Like if my insight would insite anything else for others than I...
Jealousy, fear, rage, confusion Et-Cetera...
is not my choice but theirs, or maybe yours...
if you dont like it just close the doors,
because its not my choice you care,
Its yours.
Its not my choice for you to be there...
It IS my choice to no longer be scared...
to be myself and make MY OWN choices,
to keep walking despite your voices
and those of others...
for my choices- I must own them
of all my choices- I may not be aware of them
For each choice there may be no end,
but could rather circle back unto itself again
maybe the chance to make a different choice
And Ammend-
The effects of the choice I made to begin-
the cycle which brought the choice back again.
Im not the only one that has choices... We all do.
Your choices might make for me.... choices anew.
Might leave me feeling I played the fool...
Or show me what I didn't know to be true...
all of the things I thought I knew...
And all that- to me- can remain a mystery....
because all that matters is what's believed
and that I can still choose
That in having, in the very least, my OWN choices,
I am relieved....
and I can feel FREE...

Finshaggy said:

Nothing wrong with smoking alone, that's just what happens when you smoke all day

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nah Im just alone a lot lol. I smoke alone soooo much.... I just have my pipe chillin and I smoke as I want, so when someone does come over and we "smoke a bowl" I just play into my habit and will rip the pipe over and over or just set it down after I hit it... cuz the way I feel about it is... if they wanna smoke the will just pick it up and smoke haha... or say something... its always packed... I tend to forget about the passing rippring passing ripping constant flow that a lot of people have when they smoke... shit if we are smoking a joint I might forget and just smoke it to my head... roll another for whoever else wants to smoke... is that wrong of me? I noticed some people get a kind of.... disapproving look on their faces when I rip the pipe over and over, or forget to pass it, just pick up the pipe and rip it and walk away lol

Christmas-
Its winter and its cold. Harvest has come and gone. The days are short, and time is precious. The winter has begun, preparations made for it during the fall. Outside activities come with the bite of the cold, the wind, and the soaking of heavens waters snowflake or rain drops. Christmas is coming. Adds fly on the internet and t.v. , we are all thinking of what we would like to receive and what we can give to those closest to us. Plans for good times and celebrations are being made. Buy Buy Buy, spend spend spend.... santa is here, santa is there... buy buy buy... decorations, presents, food and drink.... travel... buy buy buy....
Im not getting Anyone presents this year, aside from my kids. The presents that I get my kids will be fun and practical, things they will enjoy, and things we will enjoy together. Presents... spending time together Making decorations, making cards, maybe making presents for the grandparents etc. We are going out together to cut a tree down, pick it out... and bring it home. we will sing songs, and listen to warming holiday music, and we will watch holiday fills together. My present will be to see my parents, my brothers and sisters.... will be to spend Christmas with them. For all the Holidays boil down to one thing for me... my family. Sure each holiday has its own cause for celebration, but everyone of them.... those are the people I want to spend it with.
My children dont see the adds. Dont walk the halls of shopping malls or see all the adds in the cities, tv, or the internet. In the quiet of the Christmas eve, gathered around the fireplace will be crackling the hearts of our family members, merry loved and content.

haha, I imagine some of the first pioneers of herb in Jamaica would smoke all day and tend their farms just them and mutta nature