See how effective my game has been? I intend to stop being a malignant narcissist. The antidote is honesty, a skill I have deliberately untaught myself.
So letting the good people here know what i really am is the necessary step 1 in my righting the wrongs I have perpetrated. This board has been a simply wonderful source of Narcissistic Supply.
Saying No to the dishonest way i have played the mostly good real people on here is remarkably like battling drug addiction. Walking away from methadone is mild by comparison. Methadone is external. The lies I have gardened in order to buttress my sense of entitlement, superiority and victimhood at the hands of a notionally cruel unfair world are internal and seductive.
To learn more about operators like me,
http://www.amazon.com/Malignant-Self-Love-Narcissism-Sam-Vaknin/dp/8023833847
We consume people, especially women. I have been a virulent misogynist while saying i am anything but. I am working to undo what I can of this pathology and the harm it has brought my ex-wife and children and friends. I don't know if i will succeed. I uncover new aspects of the Lie every day. The more I hide my ugly natue, the more likely I will give myself the pass and slide back into the seductive ugly lie. OK Pinworm, thank you for giving me this great springboard. /threadjack