I'm feeling Manic

dtp5150

dtp5150

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My step father robbed me of tools, picked and chose my possessions to leave outside in a rainstorm, admitted to murdering someone over a stereo, stole my mothers life and her business and her house, is a wanna-be hells angels gang member, would steal coke spoons from restaurants, has been stealing pg&e for the last 30 years, and now refuses to answer my phone call asking for my stuff back.

What should I do? I am going to leave this country. Should I not seek justice for my mother and myself? Ive called a few organizations, they cannot guarantee my safety. I dont think this is going to end well.

He is the only person to ever give me a bloody lip. When I was 11 or 12 he got drunk and called me a pussy and decided to teach me how to fight, by head butting me. He would also kick me with cowboy boots.

He "disowned" his first born daughter and killed her mother by getting her hooked on heroin. I had an ex girlfriend lie about birth control and then had an abortion, so I'm almost a baby killer and worse.

He has a brother he stole things from and hasnt talked to for 25 years. That same brother ashed a cigarette on my head when I was 8 yrs old, and would throw me around by my underwear.

He visited my house that I bought, told me I dont make money. My real father was removed from my life at a young age. I was a half-black step child raised in a racist house.

I have zero patience left

This post is a cry for help. Ive tried killing myself by slitting my wrists already, still have scars. My mother told me to lie about it to people
 
tyler.durden

tyler.durden

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Fuck! i would stay far, far away from this maniac if I were you. Let him have the tools and shit, you can always get new stuff. Maybe now that he stole from you, he won't contact you. What do you mean steal your mom's life, did he kill her? I'd have a hard time letting that one go. In any case get some help, man. There are plenty of public programs with counselors, some even let you pay on a sliding scale if money is an issue. The situation sounds incredibly toxic, you'd probably be better off anywhere else. Good luck, brother...
 
Padawanbater2

Padawanbater2

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dtp5150 said:
My step father robbed me of tools, picked and chose my possessions to leave outside in a rainstorm, admitted to murdering someone over a stereo, stole my mothers life and her business and her house, is a wanna-be hells angels gang member, would steal coke spoons from restaurants, has been stealing pg&e for the last 30 years, and now refuses to answer my phone call asking for my stuff back.

What should I do? I am going to leave this country. Should I not seek justice for my mother and myself? Ive called a few organizations, they cannot guarantee my safety. I dont think this is going to end well.

He is the only person to ever give me a bloody lip. When I was 11 or 12 he got drunk and called me a pussy and decided to teach me how to fight, by head butting me. He would also kick me with cowboy boots.

He "disowned" his first born daughter and killed her mother by getting her hooked on heroin. I had an ex girlfriend lie about birth control and then had an abortion, so I'm almost a baby killer and worse.

He has a brother he stole things from and hasnt talked to for 25 years. That same brother ashed a cigarette on my head when I was 8 yrs old, and would throw me around by my underwear.

He visited my house that I bought, told me I dont make money. My real father was removed from my life at a young age. I was a half-black step child raised in a racist house.

I have zero patience left

This post is a cry for help. Ive tried killing myself by slitting my wrists already, still have scars. My mother told me to lie about it to people
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If I were in your situation, I would ask myself two things;

-will hurting him make me feel better or improve the quality of my (and my families) life?
-will doing nothing and cutting him out of my life forever make me feel better or improve the quality of my (and my families) life?

IMO, removing him from your life in every aspect is the best way to go about it. This includes removing your mom from your life as well if she refuses to accept your decision.

The guy sounds like the world would be a better place without him and wouldn't be missed if he were gone.

Causing him harm has the potential to come back around and cause you more problems than you currently have to deal with.


What I'm wondering is why have you put up with his shit for this long? 1 month of that type of behavior and I'd be gone forever and never look back. Is your mom completely oblivious to his actions or does she simply not care?

You don't need him to answer your call to get your shit back. Go to the local police station and explain your story, tell them he has your property in his house and is refusing to give it back, they'll send an officer or two to escort you to his place to make sure nothing happens, and by the sounds of things, they'll probably find plenty of illegal things he's up to which could end up a few different ways, but hey, that's not your fault, he has your shit and won't give it back. You're an adult and you have to do what you have to do, it sounds like he's playing some really immature games, so fuck him.

If you get no escort, bring a weapon with you. My choice would be a baseball bat in the trunk and probably a big knife in my pocket. This way, at least you told the police your story so if any violence happens, you can pretty much blame it on their incompetence, and you get to take out 30 years of abuse on the guy in one day. That I can't recommend, though.
 
dtp5150

dtp5150

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I ended up getting in a fight with someone and getting arrested last night. I am getting a therapist and going to Alcoholics Annonymous. Can an administror remove this thread I think it was not smart

I do appreciate all your replys, I wish I stuck around long enough to listen before getting drunk again. Im not a godamn rat.
 
cannabineer

cannabineer

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dtp5150 said:
I ended up getting in a fight with someone and getting arrested last night. I am getting a therapist and going to Alcoholics Annonymous. Can an administror remove this thread I think it was not smart

I do appreciate all your replys, I wish I stuck around long enough to listen before getting drunk again. Im not a godamn rat.
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Good luck to you, dtp. Our interactions have been spotty, but my goodwill is without condition. cn
 
Hepheastus420

Hepheastus420

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Whatever you do, don't hurt yourself man.. You didn't do anything wrong. Just gain a fuck them all mentality and move on about the past. As for your property, tell the police.. You may be a snitch but fuck it man, this isn't a case of who's the better man because you honestly won that battle already.
 
Zaehet Strife

Zaehet Strife

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I always liked to think, that people can change who they are... if they decide to. My older brother is a sociopath, he's 30, im 26. I just found out recently that he almost killed an 8 month old baby girl. Hopefully he gets charged with 1st degree child abuse, which is 15 to life... but either way, that's besides the point.

Him being my brother, at first i wanted to think "no, he would never do anything like that" but on split second thought, i knew that it was something he was capable of. I don't think he meant to hurt her to the extent that he did, but to me, it makes no difference. I don't give a fuck if you are my brother, or my mother, you hurt a defenseless child, you deserve to be punished severely.

First thought, i had planned on driving to michigan, to show him what it feels like when you get the shit beat out of you and there is nothing you can do about it... but, i know, he won't learn anything from it. Sometimes i feel as if it is impossible for him to feel any other way than what he "wants" to feel. Being a sociopath, he can justify anything, he can put whatever that is bothering him, or whatever is attempting to make his consciousness feel guilt, he can just push it away. I myself, i do not have that ability... sometimes i think that if i chose to, i could gain that ability... but that's something i don't want to try.

I often wonder if there is something in his brain that is wrong with him, and that is wrong with other sociopaths, a chemical imbalance maybe that cannot be controlled by the human animal's mind. But i also often wonder, why is it that i feel as if i have so much control over who i am, and how i come to justify whatever it is that i do, or am doing... is it that it's just a choice?

I don't know man... i really don't. You just gotta be alone, you have to think, just sit and think... write to yourself. Ask yourself questions, be honest to you. Figure out who you are, because who we want to be is contingent on that very aspect, and we make ourselves every single day we wake up and get out of bed.

I wish you luck in whatever that you do, and i hope that you figure out what brings you happiness... just as long as it doesn't infringe on anyone else's happiness.

We only get to live this life once my friend, one time and it's gone forever... don't waste a second on someone who makes you feel like shit, don't waste a second on anything other than giving yourself happiness, and helping others do the same.

In my opinion... First, do not inflict pain, on yourself, or any other. Do onto others as you would have them do onto you, but also don't do onto others as you would not have them do onto you... try your best to empathize, but be extremely careful of letting others take advantage of you... because they will.

I may not have any beliefs... but i think, and hope, that anyone can change if they want to hard enough. Just try to be happy, because that is the point of human existence... and because happiness is a choice, and it comes from within... not from anything external of you. Try to figure out who you are, and from there, every single day, attempt to become a better part of yourself in every moment, with every decision... and every action.

Good luck, keep us informed. There are people out in the world who care, don't ever forget that.
 
Zaehet Strife

Zaehet Strife

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Hepheastus420 said:
WHoo.. The strife man is back in action.
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Hells yea bro, finally got the house finished enough for me to move in. Just have the kitchen left to finish and the inside of the house is completed! Boy have i missed the internet over the past 3 or 4 weeks, loving the shit out of it now!
 
Hepheastus420

Hepheastus420

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Zaehet Strife said:
Hells yea bro, finally got the house finished enough for me to move in. Just have the kitchen left to finish and the inside of the house is completed! Boy have i missed the internet over the past 3 or 4 weeks, loving the shit out of it now!
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I know what you mean.. I can live fine without the internet, sure. But after months of no internet, I appreciate the hell out of it haha.

And awesome man.. I saw the progress haha.

I'm helping my dad out building a house too. He's been working on it for a year though. Me and him built the foundation and built the actual house.. Was a long process since we had to stay within regulations and whatever. So yeah, we got the actual house down about a month ago. We're slowly hanging stone on the outside walls. And we just got done hanging sheetrock and all that mess. We tape and floated. Moved in a few cabinets.. Plumber came in and setup the sinks and tubs. He's ready to move in. He's telling me I can move in if I want since it's a big ass house, so I'm thinking of doing that. Shit, I helped build the damn thing, I should at least be able to live there for a couple months lol. Oh and the sweet part about that is he never paid me for helping, so he said I can stay rent free. Awesome.

Things are looking good. :blsmoke:
 
Zaehet Strife

Zaehet Strife

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Da Almighty Jew said:
I dont know if i understood correctly.. This man took your mother's life? If it were me I would send him to hell.
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It was his ex girlfriends little baby girl, she was only 8 months old. He's now facing 20 to life. I'm glad i didn't take matters into my own hands or else i'd probably be facing 20 to life as well.
 
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