Learn from your mistakes, it's Life.
as For your situation with your Cousin, would you want him to Rat on you?
If the circumstances were reversed don't you think you would have tried to skate like your Cousin did?
As for your legal needs,
check for lawyers that do pro Bono work ( free ), they don't advertise it but IF
You can find a nice old Lady in the Court a Clerks Office to give you a name of a lawyer currently taking pro bono cases
you will be doing a little better.
If you can't afford a lawyer, ( many lawyers are assholes but a few will work with you if you own a Home or at least a nice car.)
something to use as collateral against your payment.
Dont forget to get a release when you are done paying the atty.
try not to go with the Court assigned lawyer unless they are doing pro bono work in the court.
(ask them )
just oust advice from an old man who has been in the system.