ShazMo09
Active Member
Whats going on ladies and gents? Just want to ask you guys a question and see if anyone has the same experiences...
I have been noticing when I have been smoking lately its like im starting to get paranoid. Its not paranoid like "fuck, is someone outside" or "better lock all the windows". Its more like I 'think' too much and cant relax like I used to.
Last night for example...Smoked a couple bowls, then chilled out with a joint. Came inside from the garage and jumped on the pc. Before I knew it I was like 'fuck, I been staring at the screen just thinking for 5 min, wtf'. And these thoughts are mainly negative. EG. Im unemployed at the moment so ill start thinking 'shit, I really gotta find a job', then it will branch off to deeper thought like 'havnt got a job, my dole/welfare money is not enough to support my partner and son...My girl is paying the way mostly...Thats not right, the man should do his part...really need a job...I wonder what the in-laws think about this situation...I hope they dont think im lazy and leeching off my girlfriend because im really trying...Do they think that?'
Get where im going with this? Its not just about my work situation...It is about anything...I get into deep thought and its like that thought process branches off in all sorts of directions. Its really hard to describe, as I dont get anxious and its really hard to call it paranoia...My mind is seeming to get the better of me.
Never used to be like this. Been smoking for about 10 years but I had a break a couple years back for about a year. I used to smoke cone after cone after cone and just go about my business. I used to smoke a fat ass joint in the morning before I would go to work, bong in bag for the lunchtime session. These days I get high and my mind takes over. Got alot of shit going on right now in my life. Could that be a part of it?
I have been noticing when I have been smoking lately its like im starting to get paranoid. Its not paranoid like "fuck, is someone outside" or "better lock all the windows". Its more like I 'think' too much and cant relax like I used to.
Last night for example...Smoked a couple bowls, then chilled out with a joint. Came inside from the garage and jumped on the pc. Before I knew it I was like 'fuck, I been staring at the screen just thinking for 5 min, wtf'. And these thoughts are mainly negative. EG. Im unemployed at the moment so ill start thinking 'shit, I really gotta find a job', then it will branch off to deeper thought like 'havnt got a job, my dole/welfare money is not enough to support my partner and son...My girl is paying the way mostly...Thats not right, the man should do his part...really need a job...I wonder what the in-laws think about this situation...I hope they dont think im lazy and leeching off my girlfriend because im really trying...Do they think that?'
Get where im going with this? Its not just about my work situation...It is about anything...I get into deep thought and its like that thought process branches off in all sorts of directions. Its really hard to describe, as I dont get anxious and its really hard to call it paranoia...My mind is seeming to get the better of me.
Never used to be like this. Been smoking for about 10 years but I had a break a couple years back for about a year. I used to smoke cone after cone after cone and just go about my business. I used to smoke a fat ass joint in the morning before I would go to work, bong in bag for the lunchtime session. These days I get high and my mind takes over. Got alot of shit going on right now in my life. Could that be a part of it?