Matrix Reloaded/Silo Grow Method

Forgive me for being a whiner now, but I will try to improve.))) It really pisses me off that I am losing my talent. and what I could have done or created, I traded for grief and suffering.
I don't think anyone can blame you, considering your circumstances. I'd have gone off the deep end a long time ago.

I don't think you made the trade; life happened and you had to do the best you could.
 
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Hello everyone!

After a week of sheer hell, I'm starting to come to my senses. I haven't gotten out of bed in the last few days. Today I finally got some sleep. I've overcome this horror, but this is only a small part of what's happening in my life now. There's still a lot of exciting and interesting things ahead of me.))) I'm saving up my strength and preparing for new adventures. What pisses me off the most is that I can't change anything on my own... all I have left is humility.

Living one day at a time is all I can do.

If nothing happens to me in the near future, then I'll continue this thread, of course.

Peace and goodness to all!


Thank you, Tovarishch!

but for some reason it seems to me that this is the polar night.)))

I am now making a lot of efforts to stop hysteria and collect my thoughts. I really hope that I will succeed..

Forgive me for being a whiner now, but I will try to improve.))) It really pisses me off that I am losing my talent. and what I could have done or created, I traded for grief and suffering.
life for me has been phases , from familys health , to my owne problems
 
I'm starting to come to my senses. I'm saving up my strength, licking my wounds. I'm preparing for new challenges that will surely overtake me in the near future. Nothing is over yet, there's still a lot of exciting and extreme things ahead, I have to be ready for that!

I haven't had much time or energy to take care of my plants lately. I haven't switched to flowering yet, so as not to create an extra smell, because there were a lot of uninvited guests in my apartment. But it's quiet now. I sent my father to a hospice. The apartment is so quiet that my ears are ringing from being unaccustomed to it. Finally, I can sleep normally, eat normally. I really hope that soon my paralyzed brain will start working normally. The only thing that consoles me at least a little is that Putin promised yesterday not to strike the energy structure. But this is weak consolation, at any moment there could be a provocation and the shelling will resume. Our society has been divided into two categories. The first category is small, these are people who earn huge money from the war and they are not interested in the end of hostilities. The second category is the overwhelming majority, who suffer and suffer, and dream of the war ending as quickly as possible. But no one listens to their opinion. Outright lies pour from TV screens in order to justify the criminal acts of those in power.

This is how we live, praying to God, who forgot about us long ago. There is lawlessness and cruelty all around... unprecedented cruelty, which can only be compared with the Second World War.

I think all the time about the meaning of everything that has been happening for the last few years. No matter how long I think, I do not find common sense in it. What will be left for us after the war? Lost territories, destroyed cities, humiliation, hyperinflation and chaos. Millions of young men killed or maimed. A huge number of people will leave the country immediately after the end of the war - I know this for sure by the mood of the people. There will be no one to work. A lot of weapons will remain in the country, a wave of banditry will begin. I saw something similar in the 90s. Now... if I live to see peace, this will not be the end of suffering, but only the beginning. As soon as the war ends, we will become of no interest to anyone, they will not help us with money as fanatically as they did before. I see all this so clearly that I am ready to argue with anyone about it!

This fate is prepared for all ordinary people here. For what?! For the enrichment of those in power! Also, almost the same awaits Europe, which also does not think about ordinary people, they do not care about ordinary people. Europe will soon be covered by a fierce economic crisis. And the US government, as always, has not lost anything, only earned. And Trump does not think about ordinary people who are dying here, he does not care about ordinary people, he thinks only about profit. Our country was destroyed, sold out and humiliated. Now we will be slaves for many decades, because we will pay off debts... we will pay off debts that were spent on a senseless and bloodthirsty war. The most important thing is that it was senseless!

My plants are suffering with me. They are going through all this just as much as I am.

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Peace, goodness and prosperity to all!

Please be sensible!
 
I don't think anyone can blame you, considering your circumstances. I'd have gone off the deep end a long time ago.
I see where Trump's negotiations with Putin are going, this is far from what I need! This has been really depressing me lately. I don't know if they will be able to make a real peace, but in any case, a bad peace is better than a good war, as the ancients said. But in any case, the future of my country seems very gloomy to me.

life for me has been phases , from familys health , to my owne problems
What I hate most in life is when I myself cannot influence the course of events, no matter how hard I try.
 
I'm starting to come to my senses. I'm saving up my strength, licking my wounds. I'm preparing for new challenges that will surely overtake me in the near future. Nothing is over yet, there's still a lot of exciting and extreme things ahead, I have to be ready for that!

I haven't had much time or energy to take care of my plants lately. I haven't switched to flowering yet, so as not to create an extra smell, because there were a lot of uninvited guests in my apartment. But it's quiet now. I sent my father to a hospice. The apartment is so quiet that my ears are ringing from being unaccustomed to it. Finally, I can sleep normally, eat normally. I really hope that soon my paralyzed brain will start working normally. The only thing that consoles me at least a little is that Putin promised yesterday not to strike the energy structure. But this is weak consolation, at any moment there could be a provocation and the shelling will resume. Our society has been divided into two categories. The first category is small, these are people who earn huge money from the war and they are not interested in the end of hostilities. The second category is the overwhelming majority, who suffer and suffer, and dream of the war ending as quickly as possible. But no one listens to their opinion. Outright lies pour from TV screens in order to justify the criminal acts of those in power.

This is how we live, praying to God, who forgot about us long ago. There is lawlessness and cruelty all around... unprecedented cruelty, which can only be compared with the Second World War.

I think all the time about the meaning of everything that has been happening for the last few years. No matter how long I think, I do not find common sense in it. What will be left for us after the war? Lost territories, destroyed cities, humiliation, hyperinflation and chaos. Millions of young men killed or maimed. A huge number of people will leave the country immediately after the end of the war - I know this for sure by the mood of the people. There will be no one to work. A lot of weapons will remain in the country, a wave of banditry will begin. I saw something similar in the 90s. Now... if I live to see peace, this will not be the end of suffering, but only the beginning. As soon as the war ends, we will become of no interest to anyone, they will not help us with money as fanatically as they did before. I see all this so clearly that I am ready to argue with anyone about it!

This fate is prepared for all ordinary people here. For what?! For the enrichment of those in power! Also, almost the same awaits Europe, which also does not think about ordinary people, they do not care about ordinary people. Europe will soon be covered by a fierce economic crisis. And the US government, as always, has not lost anything, only earned. And Trump does not think about ordinary people who are dying here, he does not care about ordinary people, he thinks only about profit. Our country was destroyed, sold out and humiliated. Now we will be slaves for many decades, because we will pay off debts... we will pay off debts that were spent on a senseless and bloodthirsty war. The most important thing is that it was senseless!

My plants are suffering with me. They are going through all this just as much as I am.

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Peace, goodness and prosperity to all!

Please be sensible!
This is the reality of war and its aftermath and more Americans need to see the results of what their government has been doing in their name.
 
I see where Trump's negotiations with Putin are going, this is far from what I need! This has been really depressing me lately. I don't know if they will be able to make a real peace, but in any case, a bad peace is better than a good war, as the ancients said. But in any case, the future of my country seems very gloomy to me.


What I hate most in life is when I myself cannot influence the course of events, no matter how hard I try.
@Sedan ,that is a feeling we all have ,no way to influance the course of events!
 
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