My problems...

Wow...its been a long time since visiting this website. All the times ive posted ive been blasted so this is kinda wierd. I recently have been battleing an addiction. Not a weed addiction... An addiction to opiates. it has been almost 8 months sober now. My life has gotten alot better without drugs, alcohol, and weed. My family cares about me and life is great. I dont associate w/ old friends that use drugs, and I have been getting alot of success now that im not burnt out all the time. Recently ive been having urges to smoke weed again, And my urges lead me back to this website. Ive never been in trouble while using marijuana or drinking, So Im thinking I can manage my life as long as I dont use opiates. Ive been through this song and dance before and I now realize how shitty things can get if I dont keep things in check.

A few days ago I had a few alcoholic beverages. So I guess my streak is over. Shame on me... I had some plants that just finished a few months ago. I was soooo tempted to try out my babies. Instead I gave them to my younger brother for a great price for him and his buddies. I have been seriously thinking about starting a mass grow operation next year. I love to grow pot... Maybe I can grow the pot and not smoke? maybe I can just grow them, harvest, and sell it without endulging? I managed to do it w/ this past batch. It will surely be a hard task. I think i can do it. Then again...I dunno....

The knowm and everybody els in this comunity has always givin me great advice to help me through situations and taught me how grow fine herbs. For that im grateful. I guess im looking for somebody who can relate and give me some words of wisdom. Thanks for reading.

nothing wrong with weed man. unless you dont trust yourself to keep it just to pot.

i dunno man, its all about the confidence you have in yourself.

man I only grow for fun . Ican't smoke anything and i miss it sooooo much, but there is some reward in growing for fun . Have you ever cooked anything for someone and seen the enjoyment you have brought them. maybe just me but fun

nice job on recovering man

good luck to you

i'm not in any way trying to come down on you here because i commend you for getting clean. not an easy thing to do. but from what i see in your post there are a few clues to your personality. you've been sober for 8 months. you just had your first couple of alcoholic beverages since and you're already thinking about weed again. i don't know you and i won't pretend to but it seems like you may have an addictive personality. and that may make you suceptible to relapsing into the opiates. my advice would be to slow it down a bit. give it some real time just to make sure you have complete control over yourself before you jump into something like growing. if the temptation to smoke again is hard to handle now its not going to be any easier to handle if your growing again. i hate the people who say weed is a "gateway drug" but i do believe there are personality types out there that have a much harder time just being ok with their one drug and are more likely to progressively seek out a "bigger" high. if theres any chance you could be this type of person then just leave it all alone for now and in a few years hopefully you can be confident enough in your own ability to smoke a joint and know thats enough for you. good luck to you.

man i know your pain with the opiates, fucking addicting i used to be addicted and it was where i was stealing fucking pills and it got bad but thats when i noticed that since i was addicted to opiates i was addicted to being high and so now that im off them have been for awhile that i think i might be addicted to pot but not really just because i always wanna toke but i dont its like half of me is like TOKE UP!!! and the other half is like meh dont toke up in a addicting kinda way. but anyways sorry for that and good luck/job with the opiates you have come a far way its a long and brutal path

I am overwhelmed buy the love I have recieved w/ this post. Thank you for all who understand. I will have to think long and hard about this like unforgiven had said.

Thank you.

dude i think you can get enjoyment from just growing, when my first grow finished i didn't smoke yet.. and seeing my friend's eyes widen when he pulled out a nug, and it was so sticky and keefy was awesome. hearing my friend say "Holy crap, this bud is so dank and sticky" just made my day

and maybe you can keep just one gram from each harvest, you know, "to ensure quality"

honestly from personal experience from me and my brother weed will make u wanna get somethin better and u will do them. if u can have self control its ok

how can you be so heartless, saying how much better your life has gotten since youve quit opiates and blazing, but you still grow the herb and sell it for a profit. opiates are bad bro, weed = good, you should give it away for free

SuBlimE420 said:

how can you be so heartless, saying how much better your life has gotten since youve quit opiates and blazing, but you still grow the herb and sell it for a profit. opiates are bad bro, weed = good, you should give it away for free

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Do you want me to give you free weed??? hahaha! well yes my life has gotten a hell of alot better since I have quit smoking weed and doing opiates. I can pass a drug test and get a great job, can go somewere and not worry about smelling like weed. I dont have to worry about always having a supply of it.

-If i choose to not smoke my harvest I think im gunna want something back for my work. If I choose not to smoke it, Atleast I can get some cash back to make up for expenses for seeds, soil and other things. I sold it for a outrageously good price to a sibling. Im not heartless...Im being reasonable.