Dislexicmidget2021
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cant say i know exactly what your going through,but i will say that whatever it may be will pass everything changes always,for better or worse,still your choice.
peace.
peace.
Remember when you were little?
- Thread starter Hepheastus420
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ANC
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I'm middle aged and I'm a fucking kid. (thanks to DMT, it justs puts the awe of childhood right back on your face permanently after 5 minutes, once off.
Sure, I'm a little grumpy but then again I was even when I was a kid.
I can remeber assembling my first puzzle (pink panther) when I was 1 year old.
I remeber my pet rat and getting my first 2 cats from when I was 2.
Age 3 to 5 Irember quite well, a bit from when I was 9 and the rest was over so fast it was a blur.
Sure, I'm a little grumpy but then again I was even when I was a kid.
I can remeber assembling my first puzzle (pink panther) when I was 1 year old.
I remeber my pet rat and getting my first 2 cats from when I was 2.
Age 3 to 5 Irember quite well, a bit from when I was 9 and the rest was over so fast it was a blur.
Hepheastus420
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Agreed... To me, love is just a temporary thing like pot. I'm not proud to say that btw.
Hepheastus420
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I've chosen better.. Something rejected my choice.
Hepheastus420
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canuckgrow
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I'm 43 and on a regular basis I act like a 12 yr old lol.
Hepheastus420
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Who said something about eating M&M's and smiling when things become too much? Show yourself ha. Well I'm stealing your philosophy.
EmilyRose
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i know right! what happened to never worrying about anything accept like lunch! Id love to go back to making flower chains all day without worrying about sunburn or breaking my nails or playing in the playground for hours on end imagining its a forrest and then a space ship and a boat without being stoned! and skipping! what happened to skipping! boobs happened thats what! skipping hurts now....
Hepheastus420
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Rep for you.. I'm gonna go buy a kiddie pool and sit in it until I can successfully imagine myself as a sailor.. I'm probably gonna die of hunger and thirst though :/.
Hepheastus420
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I'm gonna ball myself up in a dark corner, start crying and sobering as loud as I can, and scream/sing childhood favorite theme songs off the top of my lungs. HONG KONG PHOOEY, NUMBER ONE SUPERGUY. HONG KONG PHOOEY, QUICKER THAN THE HUMAN EYE.
buddha webb
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Im 40,
and im really keen on weed and still have my powdered Cubensis shrooms that i pick this time of year and dry em into powder,i eat about 6-9 gms of powder about once every 2 months and still love........anyway..Honk Kong Phooey should have been knighted! you remember top cat? the smell of play doh (marzipan) being a kid and staring out of a rain streaked window waiting for something or someone.....being a kid and not being able to go out....smells...old favourite trainers........Remembering splits my head wide open sometimes and i remember the maddest shit from years back,,yet i cant remember why i stand clueless in the kitchen sometimes wondering what am i doing???................B
and im really keen on weed and still have my powdered Cubensis shrooms that i pick this time of year and dry em into powder,i eat about 6-9 gms of powder about once every 2 months and still love........anyway..Honk Kong Phooey should have been knighted! you remember top cat? the smell of play doh (marzipan) being a kid and staring out of a rain streaked window waiting for something or someone.....being a kid and not being able to go out....smells...old favourite trainers........Remembering splits my head wide open sometimes and i remember the maddest shit from years back,,yet i cant remember why i stand clueless in the kitchen sometimes wondering what am i doing???................B
buddha webb
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im a stuntman!!!
silasraven
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watching the rain hit slow motion to look like snow. im 23 and still go into the kitchen wondering why. same with cleaning.staring out of a rain streaked window ,yet i cant remember why i stand clueless in the kitchen sometimes wondering what am i doing???................B
kentuckyboy
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I'm 31 now, and my parents passed away 2 months apart a couple of years ago. It was the hardest thing that I have ever had to deal with in my life. I don't know of much else that could be harder next to losing your own kid. My parents were in their early 50's, so I didn't really expect it to happen when they were still so young. They had alot of health issues along with the fact that they were both alchoholics. Anyways after they passed, I fell into a deep depression, and all I thought about was when I was a young kid. Life was so fucking good. I mean I thought that my life was perfect. I thought we we rich. We lived in a house with a basement. We had a pool and a fenced in backyard. I remember pitching baseball all day in the back yard with my dad. I was the pitcher, and he was the catcher. My dog would be running back and forth chasing the ball as we threw it between us. It was such a great time in my life. I remember my parents taking me to my baseball games, and yelling so loud at me after I got a base hit. I was so embarassed. Man did they take my games so seriously. I still get a laugh out of it when I reminisce about it.
In reality, I lived in a household that lived paycheck to paycheck. I got free lunch at school. We were considered by the government to be living at poverty level. I didn't realize that until I was much older. My parents made sure that I always had everything that I needed though. I had a great childhood, and I give all the credit to my parents. Now I feel that my purpose in life is to make sure that my kids have that same kind of experience in their childhoods. I don't have any kids of my own, but my ex has 2 kids that I consider my own and do anything for. They have giving me that happy outlook that I thought I had lost forever.
Life as an adult is extremely hard, but I believe that you can still find some happiness again. Hang in there and things will get better as long as you don't give up. And don't let this depression lead you into doing hard drugs. That will make you even more depressed and cause many many more problems. Believe me when I say this.
In reality, I lived in a household that lived paycheck to paycheck. I got free lunch at school. We were considered by the government to be living at poverty level. I didn't realize that until I was much older. My parents made sure that I always had everything that I needed though. I had a great childhood, and I give all the credit to my parents. Now I feel that my purpose in life is to make sure that my kids have that same kind of experience in their childhoods. I don't have any kids of my own, but my ex has 2 kids that I consider my own and do anything for. They have giving me that happy outlook that I thought I had lost forever.
Life as an adult is extremely hard, but I believe that you can still find some happiness again. Hang in there and things will get better as long as you don't give up. And don't let this depression lead you into doing hard drugs. That will make you even more depressed and cause many many more problems. Believe me when I say this.
buddha webb
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When i think back it was the death of my Mum when i was 21 yrs old and my Mum was 51yrs old.
I went full out drugs,heavy,lost all friends,from death,and it was at the lowest point that i left the UK
and travelled and filled my head with strangeness and newness to try fight addictions...nearly killed
me many times...
Sorry for hi jacking your life story kentucky,you sound like a very good hearted man,and i wish you well,i think youve been to the bottom too...and got out...............B
I went full out drugs,heavy,lost all friends,from death,and it was at the lowest point that i left the UK
and travelled and filled my head with strangeness and newness to try fight addictions...nearly killed
me many times...
Sorry for hi jacking your life story kentucky,you sound like a very good hearted man,and i wish you well,i think youve been to the bottom too...and got out...............B
kentuckyboy
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buddha webb
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sometimes we have to hit the bottom,its the only thing that makes us try and rise again.
I had Heroin problems from about 17 to 22,then i went full blown alcohol and benzoes till i was 35yrs old.soba 5 yrs.
Sorry to hear you story bro,but if your parents could see you now they would be the proudest.
We have to move on...dont look back,remembering is enough..
your brother Buddha.
I had Heroin problems from about 17 to 22,then i went full blown alcohol and benzoes till i was 35yrs old.soba 5 yrs.
Sorry to hear you story bro,but if your parents could see you now they would be the proudest.
We have to move on...dont look back,remembering is enough..
your brother Buddha.