well all ive got to say is i know i havent had the full experience. i think my san pedro was low on magic because i had absolutely no opened eye visuals. everything was feeling, hypersensitivity. When i closed my eyes to meditate, thats when its really great. I also feel that my weed was also interfering with my trip.
the best part is meditating. I was able to think of millions of things, in like a single second[a bit eccentric but still]
I've realized im extremely cut off from the world. I don't have many friends, most people i hang with i consider an acquaintance. Due to their greedy personalities, or just extreme behaviors. I thought about a friend i've lost recently[ after fighting with him] and realized how lost he really is. How he constantly chases anything to change his frame of mind for the day. My mother, a ball of stress. and worst of all, ME. My anger for the smallest things, my "over-doing" pretty much everything that i endeavor. MY OWN love seems dead to me. I've lost the strength to truly love, listen and learn. socially im almost retarded. I feel everyone has a mask, so i wear one too. and the things i truly long for to be happy are good friends, and good times. I need to find some again. Find some connection to this life of this earth.
I thought about all these things, but i also realized that im an extremely lucky individual to have what i have. All these little ass problems like money are
truely meaningless in the long run. honestly my friend I can't put everything into words.
my trip peaked an fell about after a couple hours.
Then about 6 i felt like i was comming down off dope. like meth. I felt extremely depressed. I couldn't refelect on anything and everything was bogged. total gay. Weed help then, but still i couldn't shake the meth feeling lol[i used to do meth] I imagine it was my dip in serotonin levels.
Come now, I've waited so long, I'm expecting at least a 1000 word report.
wtf. cmon man it's not like i write for the local paper.
im in midwest so no cool cacri here 
