I was kicked out of high school, took some ambition, and at the same time as the rest of my classmates from high school, I am a freshman at a 4-year state college, I have a job, had one since 14, bought all my own cars. And that's an average lifetime achievement for 18 years old. Though I may have taken a different path, I fought to catch up and did so. I think that you have failed enough, my advice is to quit posting. You may notice the quote in my signature.
And when I first started smoking weed, yeah, I got really high, but still, I was only high, not tripping... There's quite a difference. I've tripped off of many substances, weed is not one of them.
But, if I'm totally wrong [which I seriously doubt] I want what you're smoking.