there wankers man like every one says the system is fucked i dont get it i used to hate the hearings. atleast in prison u can gett visitor watch tv 24/7 work gym and get fed i know it sounds rosey but i love my freedom i seen it no diff to the psych ward just i could see my lady is all wat matterd i could not wait to get out best feeling ever leaving them gates . its good u cracking on with life and got good dreams bud allways something to look forward too
Yeah before i got hauled away to the fucking secure unit, i had a girlfreind, freinds i know it was my fault fuckin the police after being told time and time again, but after that night i got lifted, i was in a chase on a 50cc ped, lost everything in my pockets including my phone, i asked the police to contact my girlfreind to tell her where i was going and why etc, nothing was told to her, ffs, and when i got there i told my social worker to go to her house, told this bitch my girlfreind address, nothing was done, so buy the time i actually got back to the place where my girlfreind lived, this was 2 years later, because after being locked up i was in an open school, where i couldnt leave campus wihtout staff and was 4 hours away from home, never ghot leave for ages, and buy the time i actually got back to my girlfreind, she had fucked off with me thinking i just left her ffs it still makes me mad nobody would help me get her phone number what could i do i was behind 5 fucking magnet locked doors, i tried to tell her i was not coming back when i was on the ped if i got caught, so least she had a heads up, but still thats fucked, and as usual it dont fuckin matter i was just a stupid 14 year old who was a complete cunt, true but no need to be a cunt to someone who obviously needed help...
AND she could have came and visited me FOR FUCKING FREE, i could have been chatting to her nightly on the phone, and perhaps get leave to her parents house (since my mum wasnt stable enough to keep me) Instead, nah, just stay locked up, get out go to a fucking residential school that wernt much different from being locked up, couldnt even go to a shop without staff having to come with me, till i was 16 years old, got a couple month leave then discharged back home, I know why i failed college, maybe a bit of help back then would have went a long way to making me a better person but haha fuck it nothins gonna change now, already been there done that thinking how everything could have been different, was in a unit with 5 other boys 3 of which arnt seeing the light of day any soon and 2 of them who are already dead at the age of 20 and 17
ahaha see my fuckin life story keeps popping up in this thread