There are a lot of options.
Try growweedeasy.com
It isnt perfect, but it's very good and got me far.
Heres the deal.
Think and read A LOT.
DO very little.
Do not touch them, inspect them, anything more than simple observation. Water. Watch. Learn, it will begin to get easier.
Stop youtube for now.
Online, read through start to finish a basic outline of how they grow, then go section by section in detail learning more. Stay 2 steps ahead of your current grow and really dig into how to veg a plant.
DO very little.
LEARN a lot.
Every time you touch them have a purpose, never for fun. No rubbing, pulling, etc.
Talk to them, sing, dance, play tunes but no touching. Like an American strip club when they first open and actually follow the rules lol.