You know what I'm really getting down here... life. It's like this thing that happens day after day, moment after moment. Like, this is it. Not really sure what I'm trying to say, just that I can feel life now. Before it was more like I was doing things for one reason or another. I'm still doing things, and have reasons for doing them, but I can feel the underlying life that's going on at the same time. It makes me excited to think that I'm alive right now, but it also makes me sad as I can feel life passing by. And while I do not fear death, I do miss people. And it saddens me to think we will not all have the chance to spend as much time with each other as we could hope to. I really love you guys, and wish I could spend so much time with you all. I took a trip to visit an RIU'r a couple weeks back and had a great time. It made me so sad to leave though, as I didn't want our time together to end. Being with friends is just the best. Being with family is great too. I guess there's a balance.
I smoke once a day here mostly. On the weekends I might smoke 2 and sometimes even 3 times... but that's not normal.
I'm much happier here than I used to be. Not sure what that's down to. I think the sun has something to do with it. I also enjoy the outfits girls around here wear. I think that helps too.
Oh, and speaking of Rodriguez, one night before the wife was here I went out drinking (i didn't drink, but they did) with 2 girls and another guy. We sat on a hillside drinking and smoking ciggs (i didn't smoke, but they did). It was like high school. We sat on the hill till 10pm. Then went to get food together. We finished eating around 12:30 and the guy and one girl left. I walked to girl left home and we hung out in her place, drinking and talking until 4:30 or something. It was definitely from another time in my life.
Lol... and I told my wife about the Rodriguez thing, she called it Rodrigo-ing. Says I better not go Rodrigo-ing too much when she's gone, haha.