Ok this is a tuff road your on here. These oxy based pills are just freakin horrible. My cousin was hooked on them and tryed to quit, it made him very depressed and one night he did himself in (dont take that as your father will do the same thing). That drug is physically addictive and quitting cold turkey can throw your body and emotions into a tailspin. As far as the coke i dealt that for years and id do it all the time and i can clearly tell you the only time its really addictive is when your on it. Your constantly trying to stay up and avoid the crash. If you can get to sleep (id usually drink myself down it helped with the crash) you wake up and its all over, i never went chasing it. But ya it was kinda hard to stay off it cause i was dealing and everytime i had a few too many drinks out it came hehe. The part about him being depressed i can only guess why. Could be he feels like hes a piece of shit for selling it. Could be who he sells to i hated dealing with fiends. But in my situation i could always take breaks and stop selling for a month here a month there, sounds like he needs to keep selling to keep food on the table and you in school? I used to smoke alot and i would never do coke if i was high and vice versa, so if you can get that joint lit in his hand it might help him in another sense. Dont worry about how hed feel about you smokin pot i promise you hes been down the road and many roads (probably way more then me) so him making a big deal about it is slim in my eyes. And you know they say that gardening alone helps so many things including health, so you dont need to grow pot it could be anything and summer is comming so perfect timing =). And as for you selling it for him for a few days......from being there thats a hard one. Throw out the illegal part for a minute. Hes selling for money, maybe you can come up with a few ideas to save a few bucks here and there and he wouldnt have to sell (as much atleast). If yo udid sell it for him youd get a glimps of who he sells to and then might be able to see if thats dampering his mood. If you dont sell it for him he might have someone way less trustworthy do it which could go bad, and hed be stressed while detoxing if he doesnt have anyone to do it. Maybe tell him you will and then dont? You got alot on your plate atm and no you shouldnt have to be dealing with this but you are and so is he. Im sure if you think hard and work with ya heart yall come up with something, just have faith in yourself and have faith in your pops. Good luck
