You could start sellin H or crack
see what real fiends look like and thank god you stuck to smokin kuh
If that doesnt help LSD, DMT, MDMA, Psilocybe cubensis, ketamine are all things to get your brain flowing with new ways of thinking and a better understanding of the world around you.
Then you will realize there is no luck just life. so no matter how down on luck you are youre still the same place in LIFE.
And get ready for the spring/summer. Seasonal depression effects alot. Affects... effects... always get em messed up
Either way find one of the "medications" listed above and let me know what happens.