White Widow Diary

dynospec said:

Haha not the happiest moment of the day, if it is you need to enrich things a wee bit. My happiest moments each day are undoubtedly always a result of my beautiful girlfriend, our beautiful home, adorable cat and the fact that we are doing so well when not 6 months ago I was injecting heroin all day every day. Shes stood by me through every ugly moment, every unwarranted misguided outburst, and each lie I told myself or her. She never wavered, and thats fucking nuts most people would jump ship if you were teetering on the edge of serious overdose inches from death a single time; let alone dozens. This got a little long, but point is find something beautiful for your happiest moment each day, and the second happiest can be the plants Thats my philosophical growing tip, cause yknow the meaning of life has direct correlation to harvest time amiright



oh yeah theyre really going to take italics seriously

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dynospec said:

my ww has never done that under normal conditions, my cheese is doing that right now and buds are gong violet too. but WW for me is never purple or red or anything other than limey green

Here is a pic of a ww in my closet

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dynospec said:

I am on methadone, I know theres a huge stigma around it but honestly its only terrible stuff if you continue to (ab)use opiod drugs while on it. I will slowly wean off of the methadone, and as I do I intend to begin using large quantities of cannabis oil orally. There are still struggles obviously, and I know that there will be good days and bad. Its hard for me to work a normal job because of injuries that never healed properly, and my damn immune system likes to attack my joints in the form of rheumatoid arthritis.
So I have taken it on myself to create a opportunity to help pay the bills and simultaneously provide patients access to affordable, but still top shelf nugs. My long term goal ideally is to keep my family and close friends from being ripped off by squids for hit or miss bud by providing it myself for cheaper than theyll find for low quality elsewhere haha. mutually beneficial arrangements like this could hopefully in turn lead to me being able to provide compassion club memberships to anyone who had a true need for cannabis but had no way of paying for it
. Ive always wanted to be able to just help people who really deserved it. Being someone whos needed help, frequently throughout my life I know how awful it feels to need help. Im just a man same as you, not a hero, not a villian; just a man who lives life one day at a time, living each day one moment at a time and trying to remind myself to stop and appreciate the little things I used to remain indifferent to; perception clouded by addiction until I decided I wasnt going to do that shit anymore. Not one more cutting remark would be shouted through my mouth in my voice; yet spoken by a unrecognizable remnant of the man I was, who I am once again becoming.
This has turned to rambling again haha, point being i suppose theres good and evil in each of us, its simply whether or not we acknowledge the side of us that resides in our subconscious whilst self aware that defines our actions and their morality. Just as how no drug is inherently good or evil, its all in the users. Meth itself isnt evil and wont make good people evil, however it can amplify the users personality, so its who you are that shines through.

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Vincent in Blue said:

very sentimental, I can understand your pain, that is huge and lasting, I have Depression, so I can understand you better than others, I wish you can do your best towards the right Orientation to health body and healthy mind, and best wishes to your family, good luck, bro.

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dynospec said:

Cheers to that, its pretty fucked up just how far off track we can end up. Especially in the case of drug addiction, I always hear the opinion "You know what those drug addicts chose their life why should I help them? They got themselves there so they can get themselves out of there." as if someone who is injecting themselves 4-5 times a day just to avoid being so sick they literally cannot even function is consciously thinking "yeah im just gonna keep this absolute dependence on heroin going its such a great way to keep myself healthy" No fucking person ever woke up one day and was like "Yo really want to be addicted to 'X' And its so much easier than most people who havent really experienced it first hand think to get involved in. When I was in high school I was already getting into more trouble than I ever could have realized not to mention I developed awful coping habits and mechanisms thanks to the drug abuse.

I appreciate the well wishes, and hope the same to you. Maintaining health can be so tiresome especially when you just dont feel awake ever

Tis the dream, Im thinking of a great idea that would be such a good patent with the current state of medical marijuana across north america , i would like to expand on this idea to anyone interested via private message. If research comes back well, in our favor basically a minimal amount of venture capital would rocket this idea off the ground. There would be minor licencing issues that would be simple to bypass so long as a single licence could be given setting precedent for all subsequent situations. This idea would also open revenue streams to apartment building owners, and make interesting space leasing options available specifically to those who live in apartment buildings, townhouses, any building with over 100 square feet of open space that gets sun.

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dynospec said:

Cheers to that, its pretty fucked up just how far off track we can end up. Especially in the case of drug addiction, I always hear the opinion "You know what those drug addicts chose their life why should I help them? They got themselves there so they can get themselves out of there." as if someone who is injecting themselves 4-5 times a day just to avoid being so sick they literally cannot even function is consciously thinking "yeah im just gonna keep this absolute dependence on heroin going its such a great way to keep myself healthy" No fucking person ever woke up one day and was like "Yo really want to be addicted to 'X' And its so much easier than most people who havent really experienced it first hand think to get involved in. When I was in high school I was already getting into more trouble than I ever could have realized not to mention I developed awful coping habits and mechanisms thanks to the drug abuse.

I appreciate the well wishes, and hope the same to you. Maintaining health can be so tiresome especially when you just dont feel awake ever

Tis the dream, Im thinking of a great idea that would be such a good patent with the current state of medical marijuana across north america , i would like to expand on this idea to anyone interested via private message. If research comes back well, in our favor basically a minimal amount of venture capital would rocket this idea off the ground. There would be minor licencing issues that would be simple to bypass so long as a single licence could be given setting precedent for all subsequent situations. This idea would also open revenue streams to apartment building owners, and make interesting space leasing options available specifically to those who live in apartment buildings, townhouses, any building with over 100 square feet of open space that gets sun.

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dynospec said:

nice man, keep it going

Im gonna be chopping down some cheese this week I think, maybe the widow too

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dynospec said:

Haha, yours will look just like this in no time

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dynospec said:

yikes, might of gone overboard with it! I dont believe in defoliating, id rather just bend and tie branches out of the way. I threw ny white widow into a box I made with some pc fans for venting to try a dark period before harvest, going to try a more controlled test down the road

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dynospec said:

nah, you can train any strain to get it bushier/keep shorter/increase budsites. I suppose sativas would be more often trained especially indoors as a attempt to keep them from getting out of control height wise. Ive never grown any true sativas, although I am planning on starting some haze strains soon. I love Haze

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