no kids, she can't have any..never used a condom though, that's cool..
I gotta find me a real woman but the type im attracted too isnt exactly wife material..
Im pretty fucked up mentally..seriously.., for some reason every girl I've ever dated was bi, just worked out that way.. basically she has to be a solid 10, has to be ok doing the drugs I do, can keep up with smoking habits (qp a week), will suck dick on command and a tad freaky. the women I end up with are basically "high end sluts" that like to use me...
my wife slowly started coming home later and later, wanting to hang out with friends alone more often, then ended up staying the night a few times.. then she stays for a week..... still comes over every other day for smoke and sex.. all the while not returning calls or communication of any kind.. she basically left me 2 months ago but forced me to end it.. we have so much history together, what hurt was that she could just throw it away like nothing.. I mean we go back, sophomore in high school and she followed me through my life.
and she's dropped me for this chick, who imo is wrong for her and that she just met in november. she's making my girl quit smoking and change completely..she even beats her dog dammit! look at my puppy, I've never even yelled at her, she's never eaten dog food! (and I feel she hits my girl, who kind of likes abusive relationships..we're all fucked up over here)
so I'm not really sad she's gone. Im just sad it's over, used to having a partner by my side through the Times. Im excited to move on and start my next chapter. im excited to find a good girl that will cherish me, a girl you bring home to momma not tell your buddies about.. I just hope I can do that
anyway sorry guys...all pathetic and shit.
thanks for letting me say it though
gotta get my head straight right now