doublejj's BIG 2014 greenhouse adventure Reloaded......

Bugeye

Bugeye

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Very sorry doublejj, hate to hear it. Take heart that Mali is now pain free. I'm sure there isn't another dog that compares, but still many good dogs that need someone like you to save them. When the time is right, fate will match you up. For now, take care of yourself and know we are thinking of you.
 
doublejj

doublejj

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I've had a problem with the death of those close to me for a long time. It's one of the reason as soldiers we didn't allow ourselves to get close in the jungle. Your only setting yourself up. I have serious PTSD and much of it revolves around men dying in my arms. I was a Medic. I keep people at a distance for this reason. I usually don't allow anyone into my "close" zone. I let Mali inside that zone. I held her close as she breathed her last breath....I'm hurting in places I didn't know I still have....
 
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Mohican

Mohican

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When ours passed we told everybody and they were like "whatever" and carried on like it was no big deal. Then a year later we were visiting my wife's relatives in OR and we mentioned that we had lost her and Mrs Mo's little brother started crying. We had her little bro down at our place for several summers and he had formed a tight bond with our dog. It was so surprising to finally see the reaction we had expected from so many other people.

It kinda puts people in your life in perspective.
 
ruby fruit

ruby fruit

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doublejj said:
I've had a problem with the death of those close to me for a long time. It's one of the reason as soldiers we didn't allow ourselves to get close in the jungle. Your only setting yourself up. I have serious PTSD and much of it revolves around men dying in my arms. I was a Medic. I keep people at a distance for this reason. I usually don't allow anyone into my "close" zone. I let Mali inside that zone. I held her close as she breathed her last breath....I'm hurting in places I didn't know I still have....
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you have described your sadness and trauma perfectly jj gramps ...I respect that.
 
doublejj

doublejj

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I have totally neglected the carport for the last few weeks. I haven't fertilized or sprayed, I've barely kept it watered. I just didn't have the energy to invest. The neglect has allowed the bud worms to gang rape the Bubba Kush, & all of her biggest buds are ruined. But she served a valiant purpose and the worms have left most of the rest of the plants with only a couple of rotted buds.
P.S. Thank you for all the support, it has helped me deal with this..
 
Cannabidude

Cannabidude

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doublejj said:
I have totally neglected the carport for the last few weeks. I haven't fertilized or sprayed, I've barely kept it watered. I just didn't have the energy to invest. The neglect has allowed the bud worms to gang rape the Bubba Kush, & all of her biggest buds are ruined. But she served a valiant purpose and the worms have left most of the rest of the plants with only a couple of rotted buds.
P.S. Thank you for all the support, it has helped me deal with this..
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Wish I was closer bud I would have donated some time for you. At least there's a silver lining.
 
treemansbuds

treemansbuds

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doublejj said:
I have totally neglected the carport for the last few weeks. I haven't fertilized or sprayed, I've barely kept it watered. I just didn't have the energy to invest. The neglect has allowed the bud worms to gang rape the Bubba Kush, & all of her biggest buds are ruined. But she served a valiant purpose and the worms have left most of the rest of the plants with only a couple of rotted buds.
P.S. Thank you for all the support, it has helped me deal with this..
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Hey brother sorry for your loss, I lost a good buddy this year too, fucken sucks. Raider was sick for a couple days, we took him to the vet (on a Tuesday), they gave him some meds, he started being his old self again after a couple days on the meds. That Saturday I went golfing with my son and the wife was home alone. She herd some noise in the kitchen (where the dog beds lie) she said Raider was having a seizure (this has never happened before) she went to comfort him and he just passed in her arms.
The whole family was devastated from his death, it was very hard on my wife. This was in February.
I'm 6'4" and 350lbs and I need to maintain this "tough"image, but I was sobbing like a baby at the Rainbow bridge story and the Jimmy Stewart poem. I guess that's what makes us human......to feel the joy and pain of love.
Stay strong brother
TMB-
 
ruby fruit

ruby fruit

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That rainbow bridge story im gonna tell my kids about today...my daughter lost 2 cats to someone who baited them and a bird she hand raised for 8 minths but got sick she will love the story..
 
ruby fruit

ruby fruit

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And sometimes jj its just those times ur sitting down with a mate and NOT talking that can help a lot to....know where im coming from.Wife sends a hug to you I talk to her like u guys a good friends of mine now she knows GB and Sam and yourself through my chats to her....she takes notice of what I say cos when I told her about your dog she asked me if that was the irish bulldog out at PCs place that passed away.
 
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