@torontoke I've perused the first dozen pages of this, or so, and may God bless you in your endeavors, as well as heal your ailment(s).
Your spirit and good nature translate well through text/your writing. Jah love, stay "good people". We need more like you in this world. You got kids? Spread "the seed".
You may have already shared this, but what, exactly, ails you?
In direct defiance of your health concern(s), may you have innumorous healthy trips around the Sun.
Many blessings and well wishes,
Odin*