Random Jibber Jabber Thread

.Pinworm. said:
So, here is a rare pinworm post for you. I think I am finally done doing powder.

I quit on Sunday and have been clean since. I got past the sweats and the shakes. It was getting to be pretty gnarly. I was literally up to 4 grams a day, easy. Once I read that I was doing almost as much as Charlie Sheen minus the winning, I got a little bummed out.

I went through the worst, and am finally chilling out. But, this morning when my kiddo showed me the golden side of humanity, my faith was restored. I felt like I was letting her and myself down with the nonsense.

It was GWN's advice that got me here, too. No bullshit. I put a picture of my little one in my wallet and whenever I reached for a dollar to roll, I would see her looking back, and it really resonated. So, I just wanna say thanks, boss. I know this isn't a fucking NA meeting or whatever, but I thought you buttholes might be stoked to know I am done with shredding my insides. I'm fucking 30 something now, and I got shit to do. Tired of being a cliche...
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Great news, Pinny. I went through a long, shitty, EXPENSIVE powder phase in my late 20s. It was the most magical time for the first 6 months, but then it turned into an all consuming fuck fest of chasing it for a living. It wasn't even fun anymore, I just did it to feel somewhat normal. When I started to bleed a lot and was going through half a bottle of nose spray per day, I just said fuck it. I had some buddies that had to go to rehab, but I said no, no, no, and just quit myself. Not sure how I did that. I guess we just get sick and tired of being sick and tired, you know?
 
.Pinworm. said:
So, here is a rare pinworm post for you. I think I am finally done doing powder.

I quit on Sunday and have been clean since. I got past the sweats and the shakes. It was getting to be pretty gnarly. I was literally up to 4 grams a day, easy. Once I read that I was doing almost as much as Charlie Sheen minus the winning, I got a little bummed out.

I went through the worst, and am finally chilling out. But, this morning when my kiddo showed me the golden side of humanity, my faith was restored. I felt like I was letting her and myself down with the nonsense.

It was GWN's advice that got me here, too. No bullshit. I put a picture of my little one in my wallet and whenever I reached for a dollar to roll, I would see her looking back, and it really resonated. So, I just wanna say thanks, boss. I know this isn't a fucking NA meeting or whatever, but I thought you buttholes might be stoked to know I am done with shredding my insides. I'm fucking 30 something now, and I got shit to do. Tired of being a cliche...
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+rep, Pin. Take it one day at a time.
 
I made soooo much money from it. I payed for my daughter's entire private school education with it. It was fuck you, pay me for the last few years. But, I know that if it's in my safe, or in my pocket, no matter how I tried to spin it - I always ended up being my best customer. I appreciate the love. Means more to me than you could know.

Next trip is to stop drinking....LOL, Ok. You know what? Fuck that, and fuck you guys. I am only human....
 
Indagrow said:
Coke is a great time for a short time

Hey man those beers will be more effective without their sobriety superhero chasing each one

Be careful though in all honesty when I quit I got far to drunk for my own good with nothing to offset it.. Ended up with a DUI but I was dismissed thanks to finfin & fin at law
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Thank you for looking out, sweetheart! But, I got a track that can carry me through...

 
.Pinworm. said:
So, here is a rare pinworm post for you. I think I am finally done doing powder.

I quit on Sunday and have been clean since. I got past the sweats and the shakes. It was getting to be pretty gnarly. I was literally up to 4 grams a day, easy. Once I read that I was doing almost as much as Charlie Sheen minus the winning, I got a little bummed out.

I went through the worst, and am finally chilling out. But, this morning when my kiddo showed me the golden side of humanity, my faith was restored. I felt like I was letting her and myself down with the nonsense.

It was GWN's advice that got me here, too. No bullshit. I put a picture of my little one in my wallet and whenever I reached for a dollar to roll, I would see her looking back, and it really resonated. So, I just wanna say thanks, boss. I know this isn't a fucking NA meeting or whatever, but I thought you buttholes might be stoked to know I am done with shredding my insides. I'm fucking 30 something now, and I got shit to do. Tired of being a cliche...
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Pin - this is great to hear.
Our kids are the most important thing to us & we CAN NOT let them down.

You've done the right thing my friend.
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GreatwhiteNorth said:
Pin - this is great to hear.
Our kids are the most important thing to us & we CAN NOT let them down.

You've done the right thing my friend.
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It was your words in the back of my head that made me think like this in the first place. So, thank you. Take that as you will, but it means a lot to me. I am finished with destroying myself...


Who could want to let this face down? She is too beautiful for words. Tell me I am wrong... (Aisling)

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Good on you @.Pinworm. I posted this in the Confessions thread....

neosapien said:
Years ago my aunt pulled a bunch of strings and called in a bunch of favors to get me to the top of the list for an interview for a postman job. I had been up for several days blowing massive amounts of coke and banging this hot drug crazed broad and decided I'd rather continue doing that than secure my future. Told my aunt I didn't get it.

I've since beaten my battle with that stuff. First time I've ever confessed that to anybody.
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The morning of the interview I went to the disc gold course at 4am, cuz I was so high and that chick finally passed out and I had nowhere else to go. Found myself throwing discs in the dark at nothing. That's the exact moment I realized I had a problem. Saw my first soul at 7am, freaked out, quickly ran through the woods to my car, drove home, got in bed and never touched the stuff again.
 
Speaking of cutting back I'm limiting my drinking to the weekends strictly for calorie reasons. Wouldn't you know I check into this hotel for work and they have free beer until 7. Who ever heard of free beer?
 
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