Hang on brother, don't give up hope, you're a good man and I'm sure the Mrs is a nice woman.
as long as you're doing good to your family and society, extending a helping hand to those who need it, you're most likely going to get something good in return. That's the law of nature.
you've mentioned that you don't care for faith or religion, but try when it's late at night when all are asleep, to look up at the sky and pray with all your heart.
Yeah I'm a realist. You are talking about Karma. Problem is in reality faith is trumped by cause and effect.
But I spend as much time as possible enjoying our lovely planet. My illness caused me early pensionless retirement. And bad credit. I worked hard for the Dream. And I still have not filed for permanent disability.
And as depressed and sick as I have been. And of course bored and lonely when I needed help the most. I have created a new life and home and family from virtually nothing but my will to live and what I have learned from experience and study.
I always keep going forward. At least in perspective if not physically.
This is what I did yesterday. I rode my new bike all over my neighborhood while I dialed in the various adjustments needed. I don't want to be old and sick.
My blood pressure is fine now from riding the old bike. I got sick from the meds they gave me so I healed myself. And I grow at home so my work is where I need to be far too often. And I can say I am proud of my results. And I am living the most I can despite life long health problems.
I was supposed to retire at 35 from investments and earnings in my sales management career.
I was robbed by my employer in Colorado while I was fighting illness. He took 250k from our business and went to Mexico. And died 3 weeks later partying on the beach. Cause and effect. That is more like real life in my opinion.
But what can you do but learn from hindsight. And keep trying.
I appreciate your positivity!
Some things in life are just awesome! I don't have to constantly worry about things I can't control.