Or_Gro

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Vacation doesn't work like that at my job. They give us a week at July 4 and a week at Xmas and that's all you get, basically. I work in a shitty factory lol. The wife is already in my ear telling me to look for something less stressful.
I meant the vacation from weed...how much hardtime they send you up for?
 

Ibn Vapin

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My friend came by and helped me water the girls today. Giving him the big one in the closet, taking a small break after this harvest then I'll be back at it. Both plants in week 7, day 2. Lots of orange pistils, and Rbc is so fucking heavy she's leaning over to the side. Mgk is fat as piss but no leaning, not sure if that's due to the mainline or not, thoughts @Or_Gro ?
 

Or_Gro

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My friend came by and helped me water the girls today. Giving him the big one in the closet, taking a small break after this harvest then I'll be back at it. Both plants in week 7, day 2. Lots of orange pistils, and Rbc is so fucking heavy she's leaning over to the side. Mgk is fat as piss but no leaning, not sure if that's due to the mainline or not, thoughts @Or_Gro ?
It’s due to a good grower spreading out the plant...like a balance....

Hey man, i’m so sorry you have this shit goin on. I hope you keep growing and find a way to partake; but most of all i hope you continue posting with your buds here, even if it’s just once in a while.

I’m thinkin of you dude, and hope you’re back on your feet soon.
 

Ibn Vapin

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It’s due to a good grower spreading out the plant...like a balance....

Hey man, i’m so sorry you have this shit goin on. I hope you keep growing and find a way to partake; but most of all i hope you continue posting with your buds here, even if it’s just once in a while.

I’m thinkin of you dude, and hope you’re back on your feet soon.
Thank you. I think most of the illness was from the Prozac. Outside of the vomiting from chs that stuff had me fucked up bad. So I quit taking it this morning. Feel a bit better but gonna take a while to slide out of my system. Just need to get my eating back right.
 

Or_Gro

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Thank you. I think most of the illness was from the Prozac. Outside of the vomiting from chs that stuff had me fucked up bad. So I quit taking it this morning. Feel a bit better but gonna take a while to slide out of my system. Just need to get my eating back right.
Info says takes a couple weeks to notice a diff... hope it’s shorter..
 

Ibn Vapin

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Info says takes a couple weeks to notice a diff... hope it’s shorter..
Only been on it like a week, can't take that long. I fucking hope not at least, Jesus. Normally I have a slight lazy streak, but that's normally tempered by an assertive/aggressive/competitive nature. This feeling I have right now is like back when I was on celexa and trazedone in the mid 2000s. Fuck. That.

I had just thought at first it was my ptsd coming back to haunt me which is why I asked doc for it to begin with. Early stages of serotonin syndrome plus chs were like taking the green weenie in the butt all over again.
 

Or_Gro

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Only been on it like a week, can't take that long. I fucking hope not at least, Jesus. Normally I have a slight lazy streak, but that's normally tempered by an assertive/aggressive/competitive nature. This feeling I have right now is like back when I was on celexa and trazedone in the mid 2000s. Fuck. That.

I had just thought at first it was my ptsd coming back to haunt me which is why I asked doc for it to begin with. Early stages of serotonin syndrome plus chs were like taking the green weenie in the butt all over again.
You have a way with words my friend....

sounds like bolton and trump are gearing up to give another group of our best a lifetime of ptsd in iran, for what? Wtf is wrong with our country?
 

Ibn Vapin

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You have a way with words my friend....

sounds like bolton and trump are gearing up to give another group of our best a lifetime of ptsd in iran, for what? Wtf is wrong with our country?
I just speak. My missus apologizes to people all the time. I don't have much of a filter, and I don't tend to care to censor myself just to save people's feelings. If I like you I like you, and if I don't I don't. If I feel like shit, I'm gonna say I feel like shit, you know?

I don't know what's wrong with these guys in the White House bro. I don't want my brothers suffering the same shit I suffer from. Ptsd is like a fucking cancer in the mind. Always eating at you, avoidant behavior reinforces more avoidant behavior...it's shit. When a jet flies overhead, I shiver and if they're loud enough it's a toss up between running for cover or being frozen in place for danger-close.

I remember being on fire watch one night in Fallujah, right, with my NVGs on. Watching an AC130 targeting lazer shine down through the clouds as they smoked dudes. I remember far too much shit about that damn city. Could hear the 40mm automatic nade launcher putting in work.
 

Or_Gro

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I just speak. My missus apologizes to people all the time. I don't have much of a filter, and I don't tend to care to censor myself just to save people's feelings. If I like you I like you, and if I don't I don't. If I feel like shit, I'm gonna say I feel like shit, you know?

I don't know what's wrong with these guys in the White House bro. I don't want my brothers suffering the same shit I suffer from. Ptsd is like a fucking cancer in the mind. Always eating at you, avoidant behavior reinforces more avoidant behavior...it's shit. When a jet flies overhead, I shiver and if they're loud enough it's a toss up between running for cover or being frozen in place for danger-close.

I remember being on fire watch one night in Fallujah, right, with my NVGs on. Watching an AC130 targeting lazer shine down through the clouds as they smoked dudes. I remember far too much shit about that damn city. Could hear the 40mm automatic nade launcher putting in work.
Hang in there man, you got friends...lemme know if i can do something to help.

Is the VA doin you good?
 

Ibn Vapin

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Hang in there man, you got friends...lemme know if i can do something to help.

Is the VA doin you good?
Yeah they just take fucking forever, feels like. But there's also a LOT of us, so...I can't really hold it against them too much. Hell even my main mental health provider there bounces between Mcguire and a CBOC down in Emporia. The guy before him is up at the Fredericksburg CBOC. I've got an appt next week with my primary care doc, and one with a good psychologist I know there. She helped me a lot before with CBT. Just gotta make it to next week lol. I called today and asked if I could see her Tuesday when I go see my main doc instead of waiting till Friday, haven't heard back yet but I'm sure they got her hard at the galley row because she's capable. She did my mindfulness group too, part of which I STILL use almost every day these days. Sat on the porch earlier today and let the breeze and wind chimes take me somewhere else for a little while. Not a cure, but helps sometimes when I start feeling overwhelmed.

Worst...well, weirdest part for me of a lot of this is some slight emotional instability. I've cried like three times today. You know when the last time I actually cried was? Like, two fucking years ago when my best cat friend Dust got hit by a car. I'm nowhere near suicidal, never have been, but damn bursting into tears when my girl asks if I wanna ride to the store with her is annoying!
 

Or_Gro

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Yeah they just take fucking forever, feels like. But there's also a LOT of us, so...I can't really hold it against them too much. Hell even my main mental health provider there bounces between Mcguire and a CBOC down in Emporia. The guy before him is up at the Fredericksburg CBOC. I've got an appt next week with my primary care doc, and one with a good psychologist I know there. She helped me a lot before with CBT. Just gotta make it to next week lol. I called today and asked if I could see her Tuesday when I go see my main doc instead of waiting till Friday, haven't heard back yet but I'm sure they got her hard at the galley row because she's capable. She did my mindfulness group too, part of which I STILL use almost every day these days. Sat on the porch earlier today and let the breeze and wind chimes take me somewhere else for a little while. Not a cure, but helps sometimes when I start feeling overwhelmed.

Worst...well, weirdest part for me of a lot of this is some slight emotional instability. I've cried like three times today. You know when the last time I actually cried was? Like, two fucking years ago when my best cat friend Dust got hit by a car. I'm nowhere near suicidal, never have been, but damn bursting into tears when my girl asks if I wanna ride to the store with her is annoying!
Yeah man, go with the emotion, somethin wants to come out...

My wife-best friend of 30+ yrs died from breast cancer 3 yrs ago, it just hits outta the blue sometimes...part of the healing....
 
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