Dude, you need to realize you are delusional. "Jesus" was actually known as the "hadraht isa" or "the blessed one. He abolished the state of Israel, which was the staging point of the conquering kingdoms of Rome and Britain. When the tyrants got sent back to their kingsdoms they impostered the judaic faith by founding the christian and catholic churches, and then restricted the freedom of religion of the people to enforce those churches by torturing people to death if they didn't accept the church, that was the first 90 years after the hadraht isa abolished israel, it was known as the "dark ages". Most of the prophecies are spoken to the middle eastern people, and are metaphorical, you might be mataphorically a martyr, and willing to try and speak a morally correct word and get "crucified for your sacrifice" as if you are "the christ", but you are by no means the returned prophet of the middle east known as the blessed one. You just dwell on your religion too much and hallucinate about it because you sit on your ass and smoke weed. Personally I think your soul is manifesting spiritually, but your consciousness is confusing that understanding that homosapiens as a species collective, have alot more tendency to manifest as satan psychologically, and that is detrimental to our development a colony of intelligent life-forms evolving as part of the universe, and over-coming that mentality is somewhat the "meaning of life" at this stage of our evolution collective, and for each and every one of us personally as an individual, (but as I said confused) with the meaning of YOUR own life, because you are trying to think self centered that you have some reason or purpose or importance cause you are bored, stoned and hallucinating, and obsessing about all the doses of church are you entertaining yourself with every day.
Just get on with your life and accept that people are immoral and lying about it, and they know that, and they intend to continue to always be that way, together even, on purpose. You should continue to be morally correct, but focus on your independence and work, and then get on with your life. I know if you read this post, it will be viewed as opposition to you, and your mind will start rejecting it and me, and immediately start trying to convince itself how you are, then you will trail off obsessing about this topic even more, as I have already advised you not to do. Find peace, when the hadraht isa reveals himself and unites the churches and the people by abolishing decietful, immoral kings impostering themselves as democracies or republics, you can say told ya so, and be happy. But I do not look down on you, or oppose you, I want you to be happy, please go find a profession or hobby and lay off the weed for a bit
. You need to sober up lol.
peace