and i can't find anything to buy. i feel i need to make un-needed purchases to bring joy to myself. i have some money but i can't find anything to buy. i have all i really need or want. it's not a lot but i'm happy. i should feel good about this. most of the time i do. but there is this itch/urge to spend money. i know it feels good to "be able" to spend money, but maybe that's all it is. so i sit here shopping. shooting down all my own wants. do i really even want that? no not really. there has got to be something. but then why? why does there have to always be something wanted or needed. like i said i don't really have a lot. i could probably travel but i'm more a home-body. i enjoy the security and safety of my house. i have been in way to many "kidnapped" scenarios to ever again get more than 50 miles from home and feel safe. i could buy a bad-ass car. i'm looking but how much do i REALLY need to spend. do i really need a "show car"? no. i could get one but then i would feel like i had something to prove. i just can't see myself "pimping around in my ride". maybe a drive thru the mountains. or a dash across town.
oh, the all-mighty dollar. what shall i do?
oh, the all-mighty dollar. what shall i do?