When I said that I didn't mean to suggest I am a full blown schizphrenic. I've never experienced seeing visuals as described to me by my friend who actually has schizophrenia and whose brother has "schizophrenic tendencies" or some other word. But I know its not normal to hear voices and sounds that no one else hears, when I am sober.
As for prescription medication "solving" (band-aiding) problems, I quit taking my medicine for quite a while and it resulted in me being admitted to the hampstead mental hospital, not very much fun. Once I got back onto my medicine everything slowly got better, until I would get random panic attacks multiple times throughout the day and that is when I got Klonopins. Now I've been prescribed seroquel to take at night and its supposed to prevent anger during the daytime, but all it does is turn me into a zombie. Not sure too hold onto it or try to get him to switch me to something different.
Yes, I am a medicine "abuser", that fact is pretty clear. However, unlike most people on rollitup I don't (and perhaps this statement is incorrect) have a supply of dank headies. Or a job or drivers license.
This is where pills come in.
It's a vicious cycle, the pills will continue to work until they don't anymore. Then you get admitted to the hospital again. Then you will get more drugs, just don't be surprised if all the drugs cut 10-20yrs from your life and make you less functional as time goes on.
I've watched psyche drugs destroy someone very close to me, personally I would have preferred the bi-polar symptoms over the side effects from all the drugs. The bi-polar was manageable before the drugs, now I'm confident she suffers from some permanent brain damage .
If you can't get access to some good cannabis I would highly recommend you find some or start a garden.
OR you can continue to take expensive poison peddled by people who could give a shit about your well being.
I'm certainly not saying that Cannabis is the cure-all panacea. From personal experience my opinion is those drugs just do more harm then good and will only make your psychotic symptoms worse over time while creating a dependence.
Psychiatrists can not give you real answers just meds . . . .
Good Luck Brotha