does anyone have a problem with thoughts i worry alot and believe my made up thoughts

i trip alot, more lately. i just broke up with my gf, and have just been thinking all this crazy shit. i feel like a nut case, ive been to a psychiatrist and im on all kinds of anti depressants and anxiety medds. i recently had thoughts of suicide and my ex called the 50 reporting some of the texts i had sent, i felt like i was in a dream, has anyone had this happen?
 

poplars

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take a step back and breathe, look at the bigger picture here...

if that doesn't work, get a good counselor . . . . shit will get better, it always does in some way.
 

Fight411

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ya and I went to therapy as soon as possible

but since you live in Paradise, fuck it.
lmao but yea when me and my ex split 6 months ago it was horrible i was bad off and similar to you but not quite as bad. i still think about her all the time =/ but my overall mindset is much better and healthier than before.

you could jus drink and smoke as much as you can and forget for a while although you probaly need serious help truthfully ONLY time will help
 
its shity not being able to controll my mind i know i can just give it time and forget but i somewhat want to remember to keep myself from hurting anyone and myself in the future. im a peaceful person and the world is fucking hitler, i feel like there is a marygoround in my head spinning when i start to think negative. where does all this negativity come from its almost like a mind trip
 

ANC

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chemical imbalance.
Got any aunts or uncles that are a bit batty, or possible suicides in the family?

I don't like doctors, my advice would be ayauasca, but it would need to be under the care of a real ayauaschero, and you'd need to be off your medication for quite a while first for safety reasons.
 

poplars

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chemical imbalance.
Got any aunts or uncles that are a bit batty, or possible suicides in the family?

I don't like doctors, my advice would be ayauasca, but it would need to be under the care of a real ayauaschero, and you'd need to be off your medication for quite a while first for safety reasons.
I don' tthink he needs to trip balls to get over a breakup... just my opinion though...
 

Devildog93

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its shity not being able to controll my mind i know i can just give it time and forget but i somewhat want to remember to keep myself from hurting anyone and myself in the future. im a peaceful person and the world is fucking hitler, i feel like there is a marygoround in my head spinning when i start to think negative. where does all this negativity come from its almost like a mind trip
Been there man. Still there sometimes too....from shit that happened quite a few years ago. Lost two people super important in my life, that mean more to me than anything. I would destroy the world for one more chance to see them.

It's tough man. I can't really give advice on this as I am the LAST person that should be giving advice on closure or even good life decisions. I can give alot of advice on alot of shit but life and emotions have me beat.

Just want to say you are not alone in the way you feel. I wish I could throw better suggestions or words of wisdom, but I can't.
Get into doing things you love to do. I assume you like growing weed, and if you do, put some focus into that. That's all I got.

Take care man. Happy holidays.
 

ANC

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Its medicine, and should be administered by a suitably trained proffesional. It is actualy pretty good at healing.

At the vanguard of this research is Charles Grob, M.D., a professor of psychiatry and pediatrics at UCLA’s School of Medicine. In 1993 Dr. Grob launched the Hoasca Project, the first in-depth study of the physical and psychological effects of ayahuasca on humans. His team went to Brazil, where the plant mixture can be taken legally, to study members of a native church, the União do Vegetal (UDV), who use ayahuasca as a sacrament, and compared them to a control group that had never ingested the substance. The studies found that all the ayahuasca-using UDV members had experienced remission without recurrence of their addictions, depression, or anxiety disorders. In addition, blood samples revealed a startling discovery: Ayahuasca seems to give users a greater sensitivity to serotonin—one of the mood-regulating chemicals produced by the body—by increasing the number of serotonin receptors on nerve cells.
Unlike most common antidepressants, which Grob says can create such high levels of serotonin that cells may actually compensate by losing many of their serotonin receptors, the Hoasca Project showed that ayahuasca strongly enhances the body’s ability to absorb the serotonin that’s naturally there.
“Ayahuasca is perhaps a far more sophisticated and effective way to treat depression than SSRIs [antidepressant drugs],” Grob concludes, adding that the use of SSRIs is “a rather crude way” of doing it. And ayahuasca, he insists, has great potential as a long-term solution.
According to Grob, ayahuasca provokes a profound state of altered consciousness that can lead to temporary “ego disintegration,” as he calls it, allowing people to move beyond their defense mechanisms into the depths of their unconscious minds—a unique opportunity, he says, that cannot be duplicated by any nondrug therapy methods.
“Ayahuasca is not for everyone,” Grob warns. “It’s probably not for most people in our world today. You have to be willing to have a very powerful, long, internal experience, which can get very scary. You have to be willing to withstand that.”
http://www.kirasalak.com/Peru.html
 

RC7

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All i can say is time heals. I've been in a dark place for a long time on and off. Im no scientist and all that talk about chemical imbalance could be true, the only times i've been f'ed up to where i feel like i'm losing my mind and such as u described it is when bad shit happens to me. Personally i never took any medication or any of that because i don't believe in it, but if you need it because you think it helps you cope better than do it. But i really do believe time is truely the only thing that heals...goodluck and keep your head up, things always get better.
 

poplars

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I mean if he's given it time and still he's fucked up then yeah I'd have to agree some alternative treatment is necessary... but Id on't think he's even tried to talk to a good counselor.. so idk...
 
well my parents had me in counceling for almost my whole life, but i think i might have took some personality trates form my ex. she was a crazy bitch pretty much all of the time and i ended up pretty much living with her so i donno
 

Bubbleponic

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this might sound crazy but its real!!!! U become what u think about the most!!!!... so if u keep thinking the break up is killing u, thats what ur energy will bring u........ yeah i know crazy!!!! so just think that its a good thing cause their is a goodside to ur break up........
 

alberts

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just let some time pass and let the crazy bitch get out of your system. some times you git to go through withdrawel
 

Sr. Verde

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Dude I sometimes go off on tangents, where my mind and goals shift completely. One day, I feel like my girlfriend is bringing me down, and hindering me as a person.. then I wake up the next day like it was just a dream, and I relaize how much I need my grilfriend, and how I coudlnt possibly live without her. Essentally polar opposite thoughts.

The thing I find troubling is that I can't tell when I'm 'dreaming', and playing with these thoughts back and forth in my head sends me for a loop. I don't know what thoughts, or feelings, or emotions are real.. and that deeply troubles me

sound familiar?
 

fatality

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i was in same boat bout 5 years ago, the bitch tore me apart, find someone new, someone who isnt bi-polar crazy and she will make you feel better than the crazy bitch ever did, worked for me..... but the crazy bitch will always be with you in your thoughts, it will slowly diminish as time goes by though, mine was my first actual true love, thats what really fucked me up, couldnt live without her, or so i thought, time will heal, find someone who loves you for you and it will make things worse, but even now i still find some things that will take me back in the past thinking of her and all the good , and bad times..... but fuck dem crazy bitches homie, they will only fuck you up
 

jhopkins34

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I went through the same shit as well man. A girl, I thought I really loved and what not totally fucked with my mind for a good 6 months then just left when I actually needed her, it put me through shit and I'm still taking the damn antidepressants and some other pills as well. But the main thing that helped me was weed, when your feeling horrible and especially when suicidal just take a few tokes and you'll feel a lot better. People claim thats fake and it doesn't make you better in the long run, but their totally wrong, just making it past those really tough times is key to beating depression, you just need to make it through those experiences and you'll get stronger and better over time no matter what. Time is what heals and weed is what saves you from making a mistake.
 
ya no doubt, so what strain should i get off attitude i was looking at the doggies nuts blue berry and the white widow, i donno which one would b better for my buck
 
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