xKuroiTaimax
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I feel you Urca.
I thought this guy was my best friend in the whole world. Kept me his dirty little secret and flipped out on me when he thought I'd told someone about us, when I said nothing and a drunk friend made some shit up.
Had me lying and sneaking away from my friend's to go see him. Never did anything in returned but I always felt obliged to 'help him' like I 'owed' him something. Then he'd act like nothing happened and get annoyed If I tried to start something with him... Then ring me at 3 am, drunk asking for phone sex.
Yeah I've had a bastard go through the back door without asking with no lube, I kept quiet.
I've only ever been a good girl and taken it ALL in and swallowed. I got a 'that was the best I've ever had' a month down the line, but no 'thankyou' at the time.
I haven't told my crush's girlfriend about him presiding me into BJs because she's already questioning his character and if I tell her some of the things he made me do, she's get mad at him and it'd look like I was trying to sabotage their relationship.
I have never had a man WANT me or LOVE me. Maybe it's my fair for being eager to please and not completely self centred but I hate the fact that all these guys were people close to me and yet they are ashamed to say they did anything with me, because they know my friend's will see them for the dicks they are.
There you go. I spilled. It's the Internet. I'll never see any of you so I might as well be honest, especially as you had some embarrassing stuff to say yourself Urca. I just want to let you know you're not the only one.
Before you guys say 'I asked for it' or something, I may flash my panties on here but trust me I'm not like this offline. When I was sexually assaulted on a train I was wearing cargo pants and a hoodie for fuck sake.
What I'm trying to say is when you bang a chick, remember how you treat her can affect her for the rest of her life. How a girl feels about herself in a sexual context can extend to how she views herself as a person as a whole. The first time I was assaulted I lost all love and respect for myself and felt like I wasn't worth saying 'no'.
Yeah you can tell us to grow a backbone, but until you've been there and felt that low about yourself, you can't really speak, or poke fun.
Sorry. That was difficult. Urca, hope this works out for you and you find a man who will treat you like the most precious thing in the world.
I thought this guy was my best friend in the whole world. Kept me his dirty little secret and flipped out on me when he thought I'd told someone about us, when I said nothing and a drunk friend made some shit up.
Had me lying and sneaking away from my friend's to go see him. Never did anything in returned but I always felt obliged to 'help him' like I 'owed' him something. Then he'd act like nothing happened and get annoyed If I tried to start something with him... Then ring me at 3 am, drunk asking for phone sex.
Yeah I've had a bastard go through the back door without asking with no lube, I kept quiet.
I've only ever been a good girl and taken it ALL in and swallowed. I got a 'that was the best I've ever had' a month down the line, but no 'thankyou' at the time.
I haven't told my crush's girlfriend about him presiding me into BJs because she's already questioning his character and if I tell her some of the things he made me do, she's get mad at him and it'd look like I was trying to sabotage their relationship.
I have never had a man WANT me or LOVE me. Maybe it's my fair for being eager to please and not completely self centred but I hate the fact that all these guys were people close to me and yet they are ashamed to say they did anything with me, because they know my friend's will see them for the dicks they are.
There you go. I spilled. It's the Internet. I'll never see any of you so I might as well be honest, especially as you had some embarrassing stuff to say yourself Urca. I just want to let you know you're not the only one.
Before you guys say 'I asked for it' or something, I may flash my panties on here but trust me I'm not like this offline. When I was sexually assaulted on a train I was wearing cargo pants and a hoodie for fuck sake.
What I'm trying to say is when you bang a chick, remember how you treat her can affect her for the rest of her life. How a girl feels about herself in a sexual context can extend to how she views herself as a person as a whole. The first time I was assaulted I lost all love and respect for myself and felt like I wasn't worth saying 'no'.
Yeah you can tell us to grow a backbone, but until you've been there and felt that low about yourself, you can't really speak, or poke fun.
Sorry. That was difficult. Urca, hope this works out for you and you find a man who will treat you like the most precious thing in the world.