URCA I don't mean to differenciate myself from you but.....I've had sex with 30+ women. I know thats not good. I've kissed at least 100 which I know isn't many but to me - it is. Hear me when I tell you, people reach that point in their life where they change at spontaneous moments. Theres no life map, theres no one type of soul. The pain and the suffering she went through as a child, being molested by teachers, and relatives, she had a lot to think about when you were thinking about whats on TV. She didn't get the chance to grow up as a normal happy kid, and the drugs make her happy now. But shes on a destructive path with pills, and she doesnt need that to be happy. And my feelings towards her well being are strong enough to recognize that I can fix it. The secret service called me the "master craftsmen." I can fix anything and the challenge to show her happiness in life and all its beauty is appealing to me beyond my feelings for her. I guess you could say its the project of a lifetime to help out (oh god I never thought I would say these words) my soul mate. Or at least a soul that is begging for my attention. I want to at least see the best I can do for her. I dont want such a beautiful person with such a beautiful mind to suffer her entire life. I don't want that life to go away, the joy she emits spreads all over. It really is a sight to see.