I know exactly how you feel, so I'm really sorry for plastering this everywhere ^^ But i have been holding off for a while XP
Tip Top is my first boyfriend, so all the way up to May this year, I've know that shitty lonely feeling that makes you bitter when others are happy and makes you wonder if there's something wrong with you. You ask yourself, 'am I just not good enough for somebody to love me?'
My advice is to hang in there, don't let yourself give up and become cynical. Meeting Tip Top was literally me throwing everything into my last shot at te whole relationship thing and I took a risk geting a bus to the other side of the country. Had to MAKE shit happen after years of loneliness and rejection. ALOT of rejection XP
KonaGirl met her boyfriend through this website too...
Don't give up. Maybe what we did and meet someone likeminded online, leave your oilfield and go have an adventure getting them.
Good luck <3