The fear is always there, the not knowing, it permeates every part of our being. The more we revel in it, the easier and less scary it is to live in it. I accept the fact that i do not know, i accept my ignorance, i understand that the fear will never go away because i will never know.
I'm not saying either way is wrong, or that either way is less scary... but there are two ways we can deal with this. And in my opinion, one takes much more courage than the other.
The easy way to live within the fear of ignorance is pretending that ignorance isn't there. We make up an idea, or barrow one from someone else so we can pretend to know what we really do not.
For example, most people, because of the fear of ignorance of death, pretend that when they die... they aren't REALLY going to die. (Instead of accepting the truth, that they do not know)
The more difficult way to live within the fear of ignorance is accepting it. Understanding that no matter how hard we try, nor how much we think, that we will never be able to know for certain what happens when we die, or what reality really is, or if this is a dream, or an illusion, or any other of the billions of ideas that people have created from the very first time the first human animal had such ideas.
So yes, you are right, i am scared of death... because death is the one great unknown that presumably ends our entire existence (as far as we can tell). But at the same time, i am not afraid to die... if that makes any sense.
The only difference between our fear is that you deny death, while i accept it. You either make up an idea, or gather one from someone else (probably the latter) and use it to alleviate the pain of having to deal with the prospect of dying without knowing what is going to happen.
I on the other hand deal with death at face value, i am truthful to myself about what i know and what i don't know, i don't pretend to have answers where none can be found. I find this way much better, because i don't have to lie to myself, and i base the purpose and meaning of my existence on honesty with myself. Just as, others will find the other way a better way to live life, it is all just based on perspective is it not?
Either way, one thing IS for certain... that i am going to keep trying to enlighten people with the fact that being certain about something you cannot be certain of, is absurd. While spiritualists/evangelists/theologians etc. etc. etc.... will continue to try to tell me and everyone else how they are certain.
But i know the truth... and so do you, that you don't know... and neither do i.
But yet, you will continue to deny that, and delude yourself into thinking that you do know, because it makes you less scared, and gives you some comfort. Which is completely fine with me.
When you come to a forum filled with intellectual people, and expect to voice your opinion about your certainties of existence, expect no less from us than what we would expect from you. We WILL question your ideas, we WILL cast doubt, and we WILL make you think... if you wish to converse with us on a mature level. Don't expect us to sit around and say ooohhhh this guy knows the truth! Lets all tell him how great his idea is! NO! You will gain respect in this forum just like every other individual here has and ever will. By revising your thinking when you are wrong, by admitting when you are wrong, and by showing us how open you are to new information and research you are willing to give your time to. If you don't want to think, and learn, this probably isn't the place for you. But you are welcome here no matter the ideas you have, but remember that they will be questioned, and others have just as much of a right to comment their opinion on your writings, as you do ours.