The UK Growers Thread!

[iiKode]

ha ha yeah bro some strong weed sets my panic attacks off lol but i got some calming techniques so it okay aslong as i smoke at night im cool but i dont sleep unless i smoke mate prison was so tough i was nakerd and had to work inside it fucking shit i never smoke while i meet family or go to meetings cause i get real anxious but it says it does that to people like us (similar condition) but i gotta deal with my ups and downs with the split pers dis im so stressy with it it nuts and think loads of stuff and what people thinking and i over anylize stuff ive had that for fucking years its mental the weed sorta calms it away like people with tourettes playing music do you get what i mean lol

yeah man, if i smoke some strong shit, i end up trying to straighten up every crease in my t-shirt, cuz i think people are judging me, also wont look downa t my feet incase someone notices a double chin, but now, i have to admit iv gotten alot better, more confident better people skills etc starting to think it was just a teen thing, but i do have some bad days, cant deal with embarrassment at all, when people do shit like that on purpose i have to leave or i see red as i overthink the whole situation millions of times in my head, but as i said im getting alot better and hope it doesnt creep up on me like when i was 17 it was bad i wouldnt leave the house ever, and i cant realy be in large crouds as i tend to act like a dick and most likley end up getting charged for something stupid

 

[samtheman08]

Less of the raided talk lol I'm paranoid as it is. Good luck with the job interview.

ha h aha dont risk it if you cant hack the paranoia .... dont tell no one your growing not even ya best pal never i know its hard REAL HARD but its worth it thats half the risk down the rest is being unlucky

 

[iiKode]

Less of the raided talk lol I'm paranoid as it is. Good luck with the job interview.

thanks mate, im looking forward to finding out the results of it, if i end up with this job i can afford a motorbike finally, and get my grow back on track instead of fuckin dole money being limited to 50 quid max every couple weeks on buying my grow equipment, that i realy need to finish this lot.

 

[samtheman08]

yeah man, if i smoke some strong shit, i end up trying to straighten up every crease in my t-shirt, cuz i think people are judging me, also wont look downa t my feet incase someone notices a double chin, but now, i have to admit iv gotten alot better, more confident better people skills etc starting to think it was just a teen thing, but i do have some bad days, cant deal with embarrassment at all, when people do shit like that on purpose i have to leave or i see red as i overthink the whole situation millions of times in my head, but as i said im getting alot better and hope it doesnt creep up on me like when i was 17 it was bad i wouldnt leave the house ever, and i cant realy be in large crouds as i tend to act like a dick and most likley end up getting charged for something stupid

if attention is on me and i feel hot i worry peole can see if im going red and i get paniky shakey and really angry i dont care about people judging my looks cause im handsome anyway lol but its what they could be thinking about me etc its crazy even thinking it sets my split pers dis off lol i think nasty things lol mad man .... do you find your self drinking in large groups to feel better in a situation ??? i was at circus today no one was looking at me though there was loads of people there at first i was going all weird but after ten mins i seemed level and was great and because that went well my day is so so much better if u get what i mean as if it went wwrong my day would be ruined like propper cant settle etc

 

[samtheman08]

thanks mate, im looking forward to finding out the results of it, if i end up with this job i can afford a motorbike finally, and get my grow back on track instead of fuckin dole money being limited to 50 quid max every couple weeks on buying my grow equipment, that i realy need to finish this lot.

why aint you claiming esa for your social anxiety ?

 

[iiKode]

ha h aha dont risk it if you cant hack the paranoia .... dont tell no one your growing not even ya best pal never i know its hard REAL HARD but its worth it thats half the risk down the rest is being unlucky

thats what this site is for boasting all ur shit, instead of telling some prick who will tell all his best mates, who then pass it on the their best mates, then before u know it youv got all of your new "best mates" asking for free weed, and a potential grass to go collect his blue giro

ohh but you grow it, it doesnt cost you anything, thats the worst shit, hell iv had it like this before when i bought and oz to resale, ohh but you bought it with cash so you dont realy need to sell it, then youv got loads can you give me a gramm for free, thats the worst part, and tbh i can do a sentance for my grow, im not stupid i know the rules, but for what i have now id be out the next day.

 

[iiKode]

why aint you claiming esa for your social anxiety ?

never even heard of that before, been the see those psychiatrists, and shit, hard to talk about ur shit thats in ur head, i know alot of people say its so much better talking about it, but i prefer to be alone, hell if i could id move to india with a shack and some outdoor plants way out in the middle of bumfuck nowhere, hell i think in the near future i want to plan a trip to austrailia, and just live it up out in the middle of no where for a few months, sounds stupid but i like that sorta shit way out in the outback.

and since my anxiety isnt realy as bad as some, i dont want to realy claim loads of shit, i just want to grow, get a wee job and carry on with my existence

 

[samtheman08]

thats what this site is for boasting all ur shit, instead of telling some prick who will tell all his best mates, who then pass it on the their best mates, then before u know it youv got all of your new "best mates" asking for free weed, and a potential grass to go collect his blue giro

ohh but you grow it, it doesnt cost you anything, thats the worst shit, hell iv had it like this before when i bought and oz to resale, ohh but you bought it with cash so you dont realy need to sell it, then youv got loads can you give me a gramm for free, thats the worst part, and tbh i can do a sentance for my grow, im not stupid i know the rules, but for what i have now id be out the next day.

agreed lol exactly how it goes roll it up is the place to spill all those bottled up emotions about our lovely plants i love this place i just cant wait to get on the grow fingers crossed i get my place lol

 

[samtheman08]

never even heard of that before, been the see those psychiatrists, and shit, hard to talk about ur shit thats in ur head, i know alot of people say its so much better talking about it, but i prefer to be alone, hell if i could id move to india with a shack and some outdoor plants way out in the middle of bumfuck nowhere, hell i think in the near future i want to plan a trip to austrailia, and just live it up out in the middle of no where for a few months, sounds stupid but i like that sorta shit way out in the outback

lol ive been to new zealand it was nice dude and yeah i want a farm in south france or spain in the country away from people me my plants dog and misses peace . and the esa stands for employment support allowance you will get more money i have it for my conditions but started it on social anxiety and won the appeal i also get disability for my social anxiety and spd my esa i get 230 every two weeks and dla 82 every 4 weeks thats what your entitled to mate

 

[iiKode]

lol ive been to new zealand it was nice dude and yeah i want a farm in south france or spain in the country away from people me my plants dog and misses peace . and the esa stands for employment support allowance you will get more money i have it for my conditions but started it on social anxiety and won the appeal i also get disability for my social anxiety and spd my esa i get 230 every two weeks and dla 82 every 4 weeks thats what your entitled to mate

hhmm, dont you need a doctors note for that kinda shit, i mean i know too many fools who do this shit, hell one guy i know is a gambling addict on sky, and he claims anxiety shit then can go to the gym, out everyday post status update on facebook bragging about his 'shape that he dont have' collect tattoos all over his body, they are all shit aswell, but still has no problem going out not drinking and singing on stage lmao

 

[samtheman08]

p.s you can work aswell mate i think 19 hours a week and still claim theres NOTHING wront with a mental disorder remember that im glad the support i get if i didnt i would kill my self truth !

 

[samtheman08]

hhmm, dont you need a doctors note for that kinda shit, i mean i know too many fools who do this shit, hell one guy i know is a gambling addict on sky, and he claims anxiety shit then can go to the gym, out everyday post status update on facebook bragging about his 'shape that he dont have' collect tattoos all over his body, they are all shit aswell, but still has no problem going out not drinking and singing on stage lmao

no mate i dont do sick notes never have .

 

[iiKode]

lol ive been to new zealand it was nice dude and yeah i want a farm in south france or spain in the country away from people me my plants dog and misses peace . and the esa stands for employment support allowance you will get more money i have it for my conditions but started it on social anxiety and won the appeal i also get disability for my social anxiety and spd my esa i get 230 every two weeks and dla 82 every 4 weeks thats what your entitled to mate

My life goal is to get some land and live it out somewhere nice, with my dogs and freedom to ride around naked if i wish, if i have to do a few years for that im fine with it, aslong as i can get to my goal, grow my way there? yes hopefully, im going out on a limb here and saying i can eventually get a few grow houses collect the cash, and fuck off to my destination of choice and live it up, probably a nice place where i can do some outdoor growing to keep me full of weed, i am still young yet, just trying to learn the ways planning for the future, and hopefully my goal can be reached, i have too much time on my hands and if i may blow my own trumpet, im not so stupid either backup plan is the way to go, because eventually somethings going to go wrong.

i see too many people living through their life on shit pay, struggling their whole lives, i dont want to be one of them people, who have to worry about money all the time, worry about feeding themselves and family, i want to get the £, hell in my mind its fairplay to me, as i said my nightmare will be shit job the rest of my life, i could go to uni and do all that crap, but i choose not to, because yeah im a lazy cunt, but not only that its fuckin hard to get buy nowadays, my grandparents worked their whole lives, and what do they get for it? a fucking house to die in, and some fucking crappy pension that just keeps them afloat? nahman theres more to life than that, live it to the max, or drown in the sewers with the rest of them.

 

[samtheman08]

My life goal is to get some land and live it out somewhere nice, with my dogs and freedom to ride around naked if i wish, if i have to do a few years for that im fine with it, aslong as i can get to my goal, grow my way there? yes hopefully, im going out on a limb here and saying i can eventually get a few grow houses collect the cash, and fuck off to my destination of choice and live it up.

thats what dreams of made of my friend do it and live it proud !

 

[iiKode]

thats what dreams of made of my friend do it and live it proud !

fuckin A, i would rather do a 10 stretch than know im gonna be scimping buy the rest of my life. some call it greed, i call it opportunity lmao, people are born into riches they dont have to worry about fuck all, me i want to earn it, even if it is illegal, i wont be told by some greedy corporation that runs countries, and says who gets what, when, and how.

 

[samtheman08]

fuckin A, i would rather do a 10 stretch than know im gonna be scimping buy the rest of my life. some call it greed, i call it opportunity lmao, people are born into riches they dont have to worry about fuck all, me i want to earn it, even if it is illegal, buy some greedy corporation that runs companies, and says who gets what, when, and how.

have you done time before ?. I hope you do maybe good few years from now you avitar will be a beach horizon !! living it proppa !

 

[iiKode]

have you done time before ? i hope you do maybe good few years from now you avitar will be a beach horizon !! living it proppa !

6 months in a secure unit, when i was 14-15, wernt as bad as it sounds, hell worse than prison, fucking strict ass staff, cant do fuckall in there, sure was boring but thats what books are for, and an hour of tv every night lmao

 

[iiKode]

have you done time before ?. I hope you do maybe good few years from now you avitar will be a beach horizon !! living it proppa !

i fucking typed that wrong read my comment that u replied to again, fuckin auto spelling shyte making me make no sense

 

[samtheman08]

6 months in a secure unit, when i was 14-15, wernt as bad as it sounds, hell worse than prison, fucking strict ass staff, cant do fuckall in there, sure was boring but thats what books are for, and an hour of tv every night lmao

mad stuff man i was in st annes a psych ward few years back for 4 half months no leave either that was a piss take a fucking drag getting headlocked all the time i just wanted see my family i hate the control im not a fucking rat im a person who lives free

 

[iiKode]

mad stuff man i was in st annes a psych ward few years back for 4 half months no leave either that was a piss take a fucking drag getting headlocked all the time i just wanted see my family i hate the control im not a fucking rat im a person who lives free

yep, i used to be dragged down to the ground weekly, thats why i done 6 months instead of 3, choke holded, and some staff just didnt give a fuck, they would put you in a sleeper hold and tell you to wise up or ur going out, lmao only happaned once when i hit a staff member, and we were in a little room with no cameras, yep perfect haha, but apart from that, playing chess, reading, and fantasizing about getting out was a nightmare, you are literally broken down untill all you can think of is getting out, hhmm did have some good times in there, found out i was amazing at table tennis, good at chess, became alot smarter through reading books and shit, and a damn site lot healthier after giving up the fags.

the fucker of it is, i was literally brain washed into thinking i was getting out after 3 months, all the staff were bragging about me getting out after my next hearing, and what happens, yep Hello mr ****** we believe you need another 3 month order for rehabilitation, as reading through your shit we believe you have not changed and need more time in rehabilitation, thats when i started throwing plates like ninja stars, luckily i never hit anyone important and didnt end up in court.

and hey i never got outside untill my last week of being in there, i was let out on "leave" to the cinema, and to the beach in the last week of being inside, i would have though they would have weened you off like 2 months prior, since i never even payed for a coke in 6 month myself, but hey itis what itis