Weathers95
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Hey guys. So yesterday I took shrooms for the second time, and this time I experienced a bad trip - or at least I think it was a bad trip.
Basically I was sitting alone in my apartment when I took them, and I was watching Family Guy on Netflix. If someone was watching me they would think I was having a good time because I couldn't stop smiling and I was laughing at every joke on the TV even when I didn't understand it. But on the inside, well it was just the opposite. I couldn't stop thinking about all of my imperfections and how I seem to do everything wrong and how I always get myself in some fucked up situations and it was really bringing out the negative experience. I do have some minor depression and suicidal thoughts come up every now and again, but I don't think I would ever actually commit suicide until maybe when I'm old and have nothing left to live for. This trip had me thinking about what it would be like to die and be dead. It had me wondering if life was even worth living because there is so much wrong with this world. But at the same time I always reminded myself that I'm alive to experience and cherish the good times/feelings and not the bad ones.
It was as if I was two separate people at the same time - one happy me and one sad/angry me. Only the sad and angry was slightly overpowering the happy. I was having some pretty bad anxiety because I could feel my muscles tensing up and I found myself biting on my fingers a few times and physically I just kinda felt like shit. But I felt good too because of the way I was able to think and better understand myself just like I was when I took mushrooms for the first time. It was that good feeling mixed with the anger and the sadness and because of that I would just call it a bad trip overall. It wasn't that intense though. The mushrooms I had this time were grown by me and it was 18 grams when they were freshly picked, I let them dry down to about 7 or 6 grams before ingesting them but they were not totally dried.
So knowing that shrooms are good for your brain, would that still be the case even if it was a bad trip? Because I was actually feeling pretty good and refreshed when I woke up the next day. I've heard of people having bad trips and still learning something from it. I'm just not entirely sure if it was a bad trip or if shrooms just aren't for me. I had a really good time the first time I took them and I want to experience that again. Let me know what you guys think.
Basically I was sitting alone in my apartment when I took them, and I was watching Family Guy on Netflix. If someone was watching me they would think I was having a good time because I couldn't stop smiling and I was laughing at every joke on the TV even when I didn't understand it. But on the inside, well it was just the opposite. I couldn't stop thinking about all of my imperfections and how I seem to do everything wrong and how I always get myself in some fucked up situations and it was really bringing out the negative experience. I do have some minor depression and suicidal thoughts come up every now and again, but I don't think I would ever actually commit suicide until maybe when I'm old and have nothing left to live for. This trip had me thinking about what it would be like to die and be dead. It had me wondering if life was even worth living because there is so much wrong with this world. But at the same time I always reminded myself that I'm alive to experience and cherish the good times/feelings and not the bad ones.
It was as if I was two separate people at the same time - one happy me and one sad/angry me. Only the sad and angry was slightly overpowering the happy. I was having some pretty bad anxiety because I could feel my muscles tensing up and I found myself biting on my fingers a few times and physically I just kinda felt like shit. But I felt good too because of the way I was able to think and better understand myself just like I was when I took mushrooms for the first time. It was that good feeling mixed with the anger and the sadness and because of that I would just call it a bad trip overall. It wasn't that intense though. The mushrooms I had this time were grown by me and it was 18 grams when they were freshly picked, I let them dry down to about 7 or 6 grams before ingesting them but they were not totally dried.
So knowing that shrooms are good for your brain, would that still be the case even if it was a bad trip? Because I was actually feeling pretty good and refreshed when I woke up the next day. I've heard of people having bad trips and still learning something from it. I'm just not entirely sure if it was a bad trip or if shrooms just aren't for me. I had a really good time the first time I took them and I want to experience that again. Let me know what you guys think.