AchillesLast
Well-Known Member
First let me give you some quick background. I used to be christian for a large part of my life. My family is very christian and will often remind me of it. I have long since abandoned that path because by in part, organized religion is a weird thing, and I didn't want to be constantly living my life in fear of damnation by not living my life to a certain standard. It's been about 7 years since I've given that ideology a second glance.
So with that, last night I decided to be a little creative. I had some magic mushrooms I've been holding onto and I decided that I would take 1.5g and work on a painting I have been working on for a few months. After working on my painting for a bit I was starting to reach my the peak so I decided to kick back on my bed and just enjoy the music and the places my mind was trying to reach. I started contemplating the universe, and the idea of a soul and soul mates and stuff like that. I came to the conclusion that the most wonderful thing in life is love and to live in love. After contemplating for awhile, another voice/being, distinctly different then my own consciousness, and it basically said, "You already know what love is. Love is why I created you. Love is what I give to you and want from you. Love is Jesus." At this point I started flipping out. Did God talk to me? Did he tell me that the answer to life is to live in love with him? Or was I trying so hard to look for the answer that my mind rationalized the religion I was trying to avoid?
I'm seriously very shaken up about this. I dunno what happened but it feel very real. Granted this could be a moot point since I was under the influence of a psychedelic, but mushrooms have often been used as tools to communicate with higher powers. Maybe I just finally sat back and listened for the first time.
I dunno if anyone can help, so to speak, but I wanted to share my experience because I have no friggen clue what to make of it.
So with that, last night I decided to be a little creative. I had some magic mushrooms I've been holding onto and I decided that I would take 1.5g and work on a painting I have been working on for a few months. After working on my painting for a bit I was starting to reach my the peak so I decided to kick back on my bed and just enjoy the music and the places my mind was trying to reach. I started contemplating the universe, and the idea of a soul and soul mates and stuff like that. I came to the conclusion that the most wonderful thing in life is love and to live in love. After contemplating for awhile, another voice/being, distinctly different then my own consciousness, and it basically said, "You already know what love is. Love is why I created you. Love is what I give to you and want from you. Love is Jesus." At this point I started flipping out. Did God talk to me? Did he tell me that the answer to life is to live in love with him? Or was I trying so hard to look for the answer that my mind rationalized the religion I was trying to avoid?
I'm seriously very shaken up about this. I dunno what happened but it feel very real. Granted this could be a moot point since I was under the influence of a psychedelic, but mushrooms have often been used as tools to communicate with higher powers. Maybe I just finally sat back and listened for the first time.
I dunno if anyone can help, so to speak, but I wanted to share my experience because I have no friggen clue what to make of it.