So did you completely run out of tramadol yet? If so have you done any other pills or dope?? You're plan sounds good so far. But you need to make a set plan for what to do after those 15 days. While the initial withdrawal is very hard.... that is not all there is to it. It's like a never ending recovery process that gets easier and easier VERY slowly. I'm 40 something days clean... IDK I don't really count anymore, and it's still extremely tempting for me to use... everyday. I'm not just an opiate head though. I've been hooked on everything, so it makes it a little harder. I get tempted to buy booze passing liquor stores.... I get tempted to buy xanax when I see somebody that I know has them, or someone calls me (I need to change phone #.. but it's how I make $).... I get tempted to buy molly.... roxies.. dope.. everything. It's always in my face. And not all days are good. You start feeling feelings and emotions that you haven't felt in years, and it's just really tempting to get fucked up. Everybody I see at meetings, and my Dr. all say that I need more "structure" to my recovery. I need to find a hobby, go to more meetings... get a sponsor... this and that... and at first I was just saying fuck that I don't need all that.... but now 40 something days in I am starting to see what they mean. Good luck to ya I'll stop rambling.
I'm not gonna lie. I ran out of tramadol and I have been doing dope again. I blew it. I just couldn't do it.
I can't be sure I won't relapse but I am going to do my damn best... What I CAN be sure of is that I am going to go at least 2 weeks with no opiates/opioids at all. Not a little, none at all.
I'm not gonna make it a lifetime if I can't make it 2 weeks... so... what do I have to lose?
Don't apologize, not rambling. I like hearing what you have to say.
I DO need a plan for when I return. I don't know what it is yet... but I need to figure that out. Right now, I just need to get through the first two weeks. I'm hoping 2 weeks gets me to a point that Im fighting cravings not sickness.
Meetings, psych sessions, another trip right away... whatever it takes.