Its cool we all do it. Get ya some auto flowers and you can still throw them outdoors.
Ive read countless books and forums, watched at least a hundred hours of videos and i still don't know it all nor would I say a whole lot. My point is you have a lot of learning to do if you want a proper grow.
Don't pop your seeds for the indoors until you have literally everything else set up, rushing is what screws ppl up. do it right from the get and you'll be fine.