BigBlunt72
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When I was young I used to never stop talking to my parents now I can ride 9 hours in fucking car and say shit to them but I'm getting better with that.
Don't mind at all. I'm not really sure to be honest, I'm in a weird sort of transitional stage in my life, realizing my age, the age of my family members and their health. My dad's smoked for damn near 35-36 years, is about to turn 55, is overweight, eats like shit and gets no exercise. Been realizing he's not going to be around forever and how much he as a person and what he's taught me as his son means to me. Not really problems between us, just circumstantial economic and financial events neither of us really have control over (we do but to change them it would require an unrealistic sequence of events he feels he's too old to change now) that lead to frequent bouts of depression. I feel like I can deal with that better than he can because I'm on the internet all the time reading about the world, this shit is affecting everyone, not just my family, and I think he feels like he's failed his family when it's actually the world, the system that's failed. It's a tough cycle, nobody expects their life to turn out like this.
All this has been making me realize what I value.
Goddamn.. me too, man. Been shedding a lot of tears the past few days. I think this is the beginning of the end for my old man. We have some tests to take on Friday, but he can barely fuckin breathe, I can barely keep it together. This is the weakest I've ever felt in my life.This whole thread makes me feel kinda weird.
Thanks for that, bro. Means a lot you would say that out in the open. Feel like we grew up a lot the same. Wish you the best for your old man.Goddamn.. me too, man. Been shedding a lot of tears the past few days. I think this is the beginning of the end for my old man. We have some tests to take on Friday, but he can barely fuckin breathe, I can barely keep it together. This is the weakest I've ever felt in my life.
Fkn since grade one. Love you mom!
Yeah man, reminds me to be thankful to still have mine.Wow those posts made me choke up a little Pinworm and Panwanbater. Make people think about how fortunate they really are to have their parents still around and to be able to still do what you couldn't. Hope you don't mind the comment. Just hit me when i read them. Sorry about your loss Pinworm and best wishes to you Panwanbater.
True. Blood is suppose to thicker than water no doubt.Well, with respect to you and yours, mine taught me everything I know I never want to be, especially as a parent. My mother's definitely got undiagnosed Munchausen's by proxy, and she would definitely have no problem poisoning me for the attention she would derive from it. I owe them nothing. And I'm an adult. I earned my right to call myself a man and have plenty to show for it. I did it alone. I'll be damned if their seniority and the fact they gave me a life, which I had to make for myself, gives them the right to be cruel and disregard my basic human rights. My own parents fucking stole 1200 dollars from me after I sent 300 dollars a month home during my entire Army career. I've got more respect for Hajj than my mother and stepfather. Enemies are supposed to hate each other. Family's supposed to be the one thing you can rely on to have your back, not plant a knife in it, especially when they know you're at your weakest.
Not rambling just making a good point.My mom taught me things maybe only a mother really can.
Ive always treated her with respect and as a superior. For example ive never cursed or used slang around her. I speak intelligently and with intent. Help her in any way that i can.
Maybe her wisdom fell out the other ear most of the time.. but she taught me imo how to really treat people. How i should carry/view myself.. and its gotten me endless pussy, thank you momma
Another example, as a man do you feel your not supposed to have emotion? Are you uncomfortable telling another male you love them in a non sexual manner ..maybe have take it to the extreme..say a dying brother or someone you haven't seen in years. Most people seem to have a very skewed idea on what makes a man, a man.
Or a father, a dad.. or whatever
I say this also as i grew up without a dad
My mom had a small surgery a day or two ago. First time weve really talked in a while
I should have a good bit more time with her. But the past decade weve kinda went on our own paths. I havent talked to most of my family in years
Anyway i think im rambling
I agree i am really thankful especially after reading what some people have gone through just to get to where they are in life this far.Yeah man, reminds me to be thankful to still have mine.
Some peoples parents just doesn't deserve half the respect they get. Like Frank in shameless.
love u PinnyMy mom's died from her taste for pills and heroin. She shot a hot dose of fentanyl. I never really got to know her. But, I still grieve for her. I blasted a rose tattoo for her on my inner bicep. If I had the chance to make it right between us I would of liked to, but it is pretty impossible now.
"What did you talk about? How did it make you feel?"
If I had the chance to say anything to her now I guess it would be to say I am sorry for being such an unworthy shit. She worked very hard to keep me fed when I was a young teen and starving. She deserves my respect. Because gods know my pops never bothered to make that happen...
This whole thread makes me feel kinda weird.