"I admire you guys really its sad" You shouldn't write in your own grammatical conflicts. Words are meant to flow and be in context with each other.
What is disturbing is you must be at least 18, and spelling, contrary to what ppl have told you, is not a monumental feat of wits. Honestly....there is no excuse for not being able to communicate with accurate spelling and an expanded vocabulary. If you cannot write with precision, you probably cannot read with precision either. I'm sure this must lead to a subconscious frustration.