theloadeddragon
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He had never chopped wood before, was his first time... piss drunk. Otherwise we prolly wouldnt have take a picture of it. He needed the assistance
i wonder.... sitting here toking a bowl....
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olylifter420
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Not a good idea to do drunk and why so long to chop wood? I remember i was like 4 the first time i attempted to chop wood
He had never chopped wood before, was his first time... piss drunk. Otherwise we prolly wouldnt have take a picture of it. He needed the assistance
theloadeddragon
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He is a foreigner... no idea how he hadnt chopped wood before, thats why as soon as I found out I insisted he do it... hence the doing while drunk.... and really.... I been doing it since I was a little kid too, we were fine. Have a few drinks, get warm and go out to chop firewood to make a fire to drink more stoke the fire n pass out later because of good flame, good FIRE, and good drink
theloadeddragon
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anyone ever been to the Philippines? I wonder what its like there.
Looking at some of the exchange rates... travelling the world might be a lot cheaper than I thought
Looking at some of the exchange rates... travelling the world might be a lot cheaper than I thought
I lived on Clark AFB for two years back in the 60's.anyone ever been to the Philippines? I wonder what its like there.
Looking at some of the exchange rates... travelling the world might be a lot cheaper than I thought
The only relevant information I might be able to offer is that the bugs are plentiful and huge !
dirtsurfr
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I was there in the early 70s screwed every hooker I could get with, got like 94% pure H for $15 a gram, good days for sure.anyone ever been to the Philippines? I wonder what its like there.
Looking at some of the exchange rates... travelling the world might be a lot cheaper than I thought
I ate things I'd just rather not bring up................
I remember my first day I left Japan in the winter and flew down to Clark, I stepped off that plain in my Dress Blues and almost
passed out from the heat that hit me at the door of the airplane. We all gathered at the USO and drank all the clod beer that day.
And the bus trip to Subic was beautiful!! But about 4 hours long...
cannabineer
Ursus marijanus
... bet you brought some of them up.
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dirtsurfr
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Thank God for Sam Magel!... bet you brought some of them up.
Dr. Greenhorn
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philipines is great!anyone ever been to the Philippines? I wonder what its like there.
Looking at some of the exchange rates... travelling the world might be a lot cheaper than I thought
theloadeddragon
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Thanks for the input about the Philippines... lots of big bugs huh?? ever been to the Deep South United States... is it like that?
Im sitting here toking a bowl... wondering- and feeling:
The money. As much as its not a big deal it left a huge scar, and is easily one of the most devastating things that was ever done. Deep and powerful, the implications and consequences are not a choice, for me,unfortunately... but rather a choice that was made for me. I suppose I understand that there isnt anything I am really willing to do about it outside of being disgusted (literally sick to my stomach) and hurt/angry. Just let it go and keep going the best I can that's for sure. But everything else, all those other little things that built up over time.... on top of those most heinous. Its been 3 weeks now, the longest that I know of... and I dont see any going back. I cant see ever taking the risk again. Not with That which matters most. I may be a fool with my own heart, and incapable of controling it or to force it to feel or not feel anything. God it hurts, fucking kills me, eats at me all the time. Constant reminders.... and thats where I have to cut that off.... is what it is, and as much as I dont really know what happened with that.... only pain comes out of that can of worms.
3 weeks now. No big deal to me, if it were just me.... but for them. They dont ask, nor make mention. I cant fucking believe it. What if it were me? Would they ask? How long would they persist? Do they not know that so long as there is breathe in my body and I live, it is for nothing but them First? Do they not know that they are all my heart and life..... would they persist... as I would? But they arent. It scares the piss out of me, hurts, and makes it easier to follow through with those choices made for me. I cannot deny my core and my essence, I will not. Yes, they ask for a mom... "Can that girl be my mommy?" and I look away so she doesnt see my expression. telling people "I am going to find a new mommy." No tears... tantrums... requests... questions... demands... nothing. Its like I feel the missing piece 10 fold to them.... or perhaps I am only more aware of it.
Driving down the road this afternoon remembering my naieve arrogant thoughts and words of the past... how well I have been proven wrong. Sure would be a lot easier if she wasnt all over the place though... if she wasnt sending me nonsensical bullshit messages.... people talking/asking about her all the time.... I know..... Time. Yeah... its going... will get there. I do wonder if this will ever go away though... these thoughts and feelings. after 1 year and 9 months of trying to believe otherwise... I now know that it was all intentional, every jab and every stab.... the kids just collateral damage to her. literally going to go puke now.
Im sitting here toking a bowl... wondering- and feeling:
The money. As much as its not a big deal it left a huge scar, and is easily one of the most devastating things that was ever done. Deep and powerful, the implications and consequences are not a choice, for me,unfortunately... but rather a choice that was made for me. I suppose I understand that there isnt anything I am really willing to do about it outside of being disgusted (literally sick to my stomach) and hurt/angry. Just let it go and keep going the best I can that's for sure. But everything else, all those other little things that built up over time.... on top of those most heinous. Its been 3 weeks now, the longest that I know of... and I dont see any going back. I cant see ever taking the risk again. Not with That which matters most. I may be a fool with my own heart, and incapable of controling it or to force it to feel or not feel anything. God it hurts, fucking kills me, eats at me all the time. Constant reminders.... and thats where I have to cut that off.... is what it is, and as much as I dont really know what happened with that.... only pain comes out of that can of worms.
3 weeks now. No big deal to me, if it were just me.... but for them. They dont ask, nor make mention. I cant fucking believe it. What if it were me? Would they ask? How long would they persist? Do they not know that so long as there is breathe in my body and I live, it is for nothing but them First? Do they not know that they are all my heart and life..... would they persist... as I would? But they arent. It scares the piss out of me, hurts, and makes it easier to follow through with those choices made for me. I cannot deny my core and my essence, I will not. Yes, they ask for a mom... "Can that girl be my mommy?" and I look away so she doesnt see my expression. telling people "I am going to find a new mommy." No tears... tantrums... requests... questions... demands... nothing. Its like I feel the missing piece 10 fold to them.... or perhaps I am only more aware of it.
Driving down the road this afternoon remembering my naieve arrogant thoughts and words of the past... how well I have been proven wrong. Sure would be a lot easier if she wasnt all over the place though... if she wasnt sending me nonsensical bullshit messages.... people talking/asking about her all the time.... I know..... Time. Yeah... its going... will get there. I do wonder if this will ever go away though... these thoughts and feelings. after 1 year and 9 months of trying to believe otherwise... I now know that it was all intentional, every jab and every stab.... the kids just collateral damage to her. literally going to go puke now.
theloadeddragon
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thanks slowbus.... Im doing my best! fucking Christmas man... crazy.
Sitting here toking a bowl wondering.... "what the fuck is going on? What exactly am I doing? Why? To what end? Why cant my life be my own.... I want to be loved, or left alone!"
theloadeddragon
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lol... just cuz it doesnt make sense to you haha. Well, the nearest strip club is 2 hours away and it sucks. Besides Im friends with former strippers from there and they live just a couple miles down the road. Physical lust and sex is not love... maybe for some, not me.... for me there is a HUGE difference
theloadeddragon
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my scars are starting to form... at least its not an open wound anymore. Im smiling these days... lavenstar showed up randomly and..... Christmas came and went... kept the drama and didnt get involved... she was sent packing by our daughter. The shocking power of that is still lingering. Its good to know my daughter knows she has a voice and is free to use it! Proud and hurt....
And NO, I dont feel bad at all that she may have to sleep in her vehicle (very uncharacteristic of me).... I embrace the golden rule though... and it goes both ways. Do unto others as you would have done unto yourself. Was done unto me... I wasnt going to do it back... not like that. She made her choices.... and Lies Ruin Lives.
And NO, I dont feel bad at all that she may have to sleep in her vehicle (very uncharacteristic of me).... I embrace the golden rule though... and it goes both ways. Do unto others as you would have done unto yourself. Was done unto me... I wasnt going to do it back... not like that. She made her choices.... and Lies Ruin Lives.
theloadeddragon
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Im sitting here toking a bowl.... wondering:
I weighed my meal tonight as I put the portions on my plate. 1.7 lb's of pork (including sauce), 3/4 lb pasta (including sauce) 1/4 lb or cream corn. I ate it all accept what my kids snatched away in little bites.... was YUM apple pie, pop tarts, candy, and yogurt for desert soon.... MY size portions how is it I cannot gain weight!?!?!?!
I weighed my meal tonight as I put the portions on my plate. 1.7 lb's of pork (including sauce), 3/4 lb pasta (including sauce) 1/4 lb or cream corn. I ate it all accept what my kids snatched away in little bites.... was YUM
apple pie, pop tarts, candy, and yogurt for desert soon.... MY size portions how is it I cannot gain weight!?!?!?!
fatboyOGOF
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my last gf told me that she was really interested in learning about growing etc. it was bullshit. she knew i was a nerd for growing talk. when she moved in, i don't think she spent 10 mins with the grow. her eyes would get glassy when i'd talk about it and then it would be "baby, roll me a joint"! lol
she sure loved to smoke my reefer though.
god gave them boobs so they could get away with shit.
she sure loved to smoke my reefer though.
god gave them boobs so they could get away with shit.